My ex has convinced me to seek help.

I have low self esteem, am usually at least a little bit depressed and suffer from suicide ideation. These are my three big mental issues and all three have been pretty bad recently. I've been feeling down everyday and have had very elaborate suicide fantasies for the past few weeks. Recently it has reached a point where just out of blue I think, I should kill myself." Sometimes while I'm waiting for the morning train I imagine jumping in front of it. It's very morbid.

So, yesterday I brought all this up to my ex girlfriend. We remained friends after she dumped me and talk occasionally on Skype. She also has a history of mental illness and we don't share the same circle of friends, so I feel more comfortable talking to her about this kind if thing than other people.

I went over everything with her and she was very supportive and understanding. She heavily stressed that I needed to seek psychiatric help since I've been this way for years.

I've always thought about seeking professional help for my depression, but this time I really feel like I should do it. My suicidal thoughts are way too frequent now and it is starting to affect my work and social life.

I don't know how things will turn out, but I'm hoping that I can gain some kind peace with myself.