Well, once again I'm on the dating market. Me and my girl have finally broken up permanently. She might try to contact me again, but I'm through with her. I'm not the best guy, I'm not that attractive, my dick is small and I'm honestly more than a little boring but I deserve better than her. I deserve a little bit of respect and caring on a consistent basis.
So now I'm back on the market and I remember why I was so scared to break up with her to begin with. Dating sucks and finding dates is difficult. I imagine for people with lots of social skills who are attractive, dating is a lot of fun, but for me, dating is hell. It's one rejection after another until finally I've been beaten down enough that my standards disappear and I'm left with either, an ugly girl who thinks she's hot or a hot girl who is so insane that ugly ol' me is her only dating option.
Both of these options, to be quite honest, suck. The ugly woman, would of course be okay if she were only ugly, but because she has an overinflated sense of her own attractiveness, she always acts like she's doing me a favor by dating me. This kind of woman is very condescending, dismissive of me and my desires and just generally never very caring towards me.
The pretty yet insane girl is self explanatory. My last girlfriend was this type of woman. Sometimes she would be nice, other times she would be mean. She was quick to anger and always used my insecurities against me and was very, very manipulative. But, overall I like this kind of woman more than the other type that i usually get. Yes, she is mean, manipulative and a little bit bi-polar, but there are moments of actual caring from this kind of woman. With my last girlfriend, for all her faults there were times when I really felt loved and loved her. This was a great feeling and not something I ever get from the ugly-but-thinks-she's-hot girlfriend.
Relationships suck. Dating sucks. Life in general sucks. But that's the point isn't it? Without the constant pain of life, those little moments of happiness that make life worthwhile would be meaningless.
Maybe this time I will find a nice normal woman who won't look down on me or act like a crazy person. I doubt it, but I can dream.
So now I'm back on the market and I remember why I was so scared to break up with her to begin with. Dating sucks and finding dates is difficult. I imagine for people with lots of social skills who are attractive, dating is a lot of fun, but for me, dating is hell. It's one rejection after another until finally I've been beaten down enough that my standards disappear and I'm left with either, an ugly girl who thinks she's hot or a hot girl who is so insane that ugly ol' me is her only dating option.
Both of these options, to be quite honest, suck. The ugly woman, would of course be okay if she were only ugly, but because she has an overinflated sense of her own attractiveness, she always acts like she's doing me a favor by dating me. This kind of woman is very condescending, dismissive of me and my desires and just generally never very caring towards me.
The pretty yet insane girl is self explanatory. My last girlfriend was this type of woman. Sometimes she would be nice, other times she would be mean. She was quick to anger and always used my insecurities against me and was very, very manipulative. But, overall I like this kind of woman more than the other type that i usually get. Yes, she is mean, manipulative and a little bit bi-polar, but there are moments of actual caring from this kind of woman. With my last girlfriend, for all her faults there were times when I really felt loved and loved her. This was a great feeling and not something I ever get from the ugly-but-thinks-she's-hot girlfriend.
Relationships suck. Dating sucks. Life in general sucks. But that's the point isn't it? Without the constant pain of life, those little moments of happiness that make life worthwhile would be meaningless.
Maybe this time I will find a nice normal woman who won't look down on me or act like a crazy person. I doubt it, but I can dream.
