Can this. make you crazy?

Seven years after my divorce it was just my daughter and me. I longed for a special companion, but it appeared that I was destined to remain alone for the rest of my life. I dreamed for some simple social interaction with an equal, and not necessarily completely intimate. I started to feel my emotions change over time when I decided to be celibate. I quit looking, and that made me a bit more content yet sadder at the same time.

I may have gone a bit crazy, but I never got deviant in my self-pleasure routine. It was always the same old, same old, and still is today when he's away. But one thing that did become a habit is that when I felt the need to release the build up I do it fast. Get it out of the way so I can get on to productive things. I'm still that way. Not dallying with the dillying.
 
It's been almost three years since I've had any sexual/physical/emotional interaction with anyone. It kinda sucks but it is what it is...
 
Is it possible that a long time of no emotional and,or physical connection. With any gender that you Are attracted to can make you go crazy? And Or more sexually deviant?

I think it can, especially when an individual's sexual or emotional needs are far greater than most people. Kind of like being a sexual or emotional nymphomaniac. Nothing ever satisfies the need. Imagine someone who has those needs and nobody wants them.. Hate to ponder it.
 
I think it can, especially when an individual's sexual or emotional needs are far greater than most people. Kind of like being a sexual or emotional nymphomaniac. Nothing ever satisfies the need. Imagine someone who has those needs and nobody wants them.. Hate to ponder it.
Pretty much me it seems
 
Difference with me is I've had very few sexual experiences . Sex only once. And never a relationship more than a month. Lots of desire and no way to release
Then no worries about being a nymphomaniac, at least based on your stated sexual history. It's when you have sex constantly, and are never satisfied, that nymphomania becomes a likely problem. You simply want it a lot but haven't gotten it, which is an entirely normal thing. And it's also normal to explore different avenues to find sexual release in your situation. That isn't really deviance (now known as paraphilia) unless you're doing socially unacceptable things in public, or hurting yourself or others in any setting. There is no firm border for that.
 
Then no worries about being a nymphomaniac, at least based on your stated sexual history. It's when you have sex constantly, and are never satisfied, that nymphomania becomes a likely problem. You simply want it a lot but haven't gotten it, which is an entirely normal thing. And it's also normal to explore different avenues to find sexual release in your situation. That isn't really deviance (now known as paraphilia) unless you're doing socially unacceptable things in public, or hurting yourself or others in any setting. There is no firm border for that.
Pretty much on the ball there
 
What would make you happy?
A woman with huge boobs. Fake or real that liked pussy pumping. Loved boobs more or as.much as.i do. And would support me emotionally. I'd even consider a trans. But id need more thinking on that situation.
 
A nice woman with large breasts shouldn't be too difficult to find. The pumping thing is something I am certain you aren't likely to encounter. I would put that on hold, establish a solid relationship, and then IF she is amenable to trying, discuss that. IF she just isn't into it, or dislikes it after trying, don't press the issue, and just be happy you have most of your needs met. It's almost impossibly rare to meet a perfectly compatible partner in every detail. Pumping is an outlier...I know because I pump, and even I'm not particularly fond of pussy pumping.

Given your lack of direct experience, please keep in mind that you might be surprised at how your tastes evolve once you have more experiences. We want most what we don't or can't have. Once gotten, once the new wears off, some stuff can get old. Live, learn, grow, change, adapt.
 
A nice woman with large breasts shouldn't be too difficult to find. The pumping thing is something I am certain you aren't likely to encounter. I would put that on hold, establish a solid relationship, and then IF she is amenable to trying, discuss that. IF she just isn't into it, or dislikes it after trying, don't press the issue, and just be happy you have most of your needs met. It's almost impossibly rare to meet a perfectly compatible partner in every detail. Pumping is an outlier...I know because I pump, and even I'm not particularly fond of pussy pumping.

Given your lack of direct experience, please keep in mind that you might be surprised at how your tastes evolve once you have more experiences. We want most what we don't or can't have. Once gotten, once the new wears off, some stuff can get old. Live, learn, grow, change, adapt.
That sounds like good advice :)