There is a guy at my gym that appears very straight, lifts with all straight guys and works as a fireman, that has been making lukewarm attempts to get acquainted with me. Strangely, from the first time he saw me I could sense that he had some interest in me. This has been going on for over a year. However, he's so incredibly handsome and built that I tense up and the conversation between us never really flows. In spite of frequently putting himself in my path, he takes a very passive role with me, forcing me to take the initiative in finding things to talk about. When I do make attempts to engage him, he appears to struggle with keeping the conversation going (although I have seen him talking at length with his friends). Knowing how attractive I am to this guy, I deliberately chose a locker far away from his because I felt that I needed to respect the fact that he's straight. Recently, he changed his locker and has chosen a locker directly across from mine. The first time I saw him nude I could barely think or speak. Although he's in his mid 40's I don't think I have ever met a guy that I have found more attractive. Although our paths only cross once a week, I practically live for the few minutes that we are together at our lockers.