I started out with my best friend, it was show me yours and I'll show you mine and we ended up jacking off each other and sucking each other, no cum, we were too young. Next summer he was proud to tell me he could "shoot the wad" and I wanted to see him do it and then wanted to suck his cock and have him cum in my mouth. He wasn't into sucking mine but I really liked sucking his cock and got to enjoy it for several years. It got to a point were he told me he didn't feel right about it, being engaged to his girlfriend and we'd have to quit. I thought that was the end of me sucking cock, I had a girlfriend too, never thought of it as a gay or bi thing, I just liked sucking his cock and he shot a huge load. A couple years later I had a guy outside of a X rated theater ask if I wanted to fool around, at first I said no, then yes. That's when realized it wasn't that I just liked to suck my buddies cock, I liked sucking cock and liked having mine sucked. After that I was always looking for reciprocal. For a while it seemed like a lot of guys were looking to get their dick sucked but weren't interested in returning the favor. Now it seems to have turned around and more guys are just looking just to give a blow job. I haven't had a chance to suck a cock since before covid started and lately it seems like all I can think about is sucking a guys cock, I couldn't care less if I got mine sucked. Things keep changing.