I think the emotion is more relieved? The OB/GYN did a double take at the gender reveal ultrasound, then she shot me a sly look when I asked, "Is that ...?"
I guess just understanding how cutthroat life can be after childhood, especially when it comes to sexual and romantic selection, and taking into account your own experiences, or deficiencies you either had to figure out how to overcome, or wait out...you want your son to be in a more privileged position. Granted a lot of my personality development stemmed from me being shorter and/or darker, not sexually attractive to most girls though I was sexually attracted to them, and still figuring out how to appeal to them, that time spent can leave a lot of young men in a space where they can't properly vet those women upfront...I would like my taller, fairer skinned, longer wavy haired, and possibly bigger penised son to have increased optionality without having to figure out anything about appealing to girls (hopefully lol) and having a better education from his father as to how to vet or compartmentalize those options properly, and streamline the process.
I know the inherent sexual debauchery we tend to revolve in around here, and it's kind of wild to say out loud that yeah I want my son to have a big penis, bigger even than mine, but I think it has to do with aspects of myself that I had to hold back or change to get the outcomes I wanted. That maybe if I had stayed nerdier, I wouldn't have had as much sexual success but I might have put that passion to productive use in other ways. That perhaps some of my cynicism, and borderline apathy might have been curtailed, if developing those weren't so integral to my ability to attract women when I wasn't so aesthetically attractive. I want my son to get all the outcomes he wants or can handle without having to change who he is.