She did want to have sex this morning. It is a tricky game of finding what works. She used to like riding on a top, but that’s hard for her changing body right now. I was careful with her and adjusting to her sensitivities best I knew how. Taking it real slow as I slide inside her, then move to a position with her knees up and she braces like an instinct to keep me for thrusting too deep so I back off to shallow thrusts and moments of stillness. It was nice, but I was holding back and looking for what she was really desiring and what makes her feel good. We stopped and talked and what came out was that she really didn’t know what would feel good for her. She hasn’t been able to find a way to orgasm on her own with all her sex toys and wasn’t sure what it would take to get there. She doesn’t want to be under pressure to orgasm or even express pleasure and I want to see that she is really enjoying the sex and not just doing it for me.
I took a moment to emotionally reset with her then kissed her passionately and made love with her kissing her neck while sinking my cock into her pussy. Caressing her heavy tender breasts gently, holding her in my arms taking her into me as she takes me into her. I let myself drift past the edge and explode my seed into her. We melt together.
The realization is that while I want to give her pleasure and she wants to please me, sometimes we can get so caught up in what the other might want, that we don’t really express our own desire. It helped to get out of my head and just make love with my wonderful wife.
I can save the discussions of complex kinks and desirous details of formulated fantasies for my LPSG friends. Thanks yall.
