Hello ladies. I need a safe but also blunt space to anonymously share a huge struggle in my soul, and I want only female responses. Hence the post here and not elsewhere.
I have not had sex for three years. My beautiful Ukrainian girlfriend is trapped behind the battle zone in East Ukraine. She is truly an amazing lady, and I am lucky to have her. She thinks the world of me. She could have gotten out on several occasions- she is strong and healthy and could make the long night trek. She is staying with her little old lady mom and invalid brother. They cannot travel as easily as she. The only realistic way is by vehicle, but those tend to get shot when approaching the lines. I am able to get money to her each month, so they have water, electricity and food (dog food too, for the two rescue dogs). It is a costly transaction, passing through many hands to get to her, but it works. We speak by phone (Skype) 2-4 times each week, depending on her signal quality. Here is my problem: I am excruciatingly horny and lonely. I am generally a very upbeat, self motivated man. I have a great job and enjoy my colleagues. I really, really, REALLY want to fuck. Really, like seriously really. Dating Mary Palm and her five sisters who live on the end of wrist street is neither wonderful nor satisfying. I want a living, gasping, thrashing female, loving my big cock inside her every day. Yep, that's what I want. My girlfriend wants it too, but she is not here. She is horny as hell too. If the circumstances present themselves and I run into an attractive lady who is interested, I will go down like a poled ox. I know this. I am hunting somewhat- not full steam, but I am yearning in that direction. If I have sex with another woman, I know I will feel guilty. I have a family depending on me. I will be tempted to not talk with her so often, especially if I have someone here. There is nothing I can do to help get her out. If they can get to Kiev, then she can fly here- she has a visa. It will take major political action to make an opening for civilians to escape. It has been three years, and I am eroding. When I was overseas last year, I had occasion to go to Dubai about once a month. I could have had a no strings attached, very beautiful hooker each time I went. I had the money, and Lord knows I was horny enough. I could not bring myself to do it. Now, I am not so sure. I am looking for the opportunity. When I was working in Central Asia a few years earlier, I was in bed with 18 women in my first 18 months there. Then I met my Ukrainian girl, and after we decided to have a serious relationship, I stopped all the horn dogging. The amazing thing is that she has NEVER made threats, NEVER demanded loyalty, NEVER dropped hints or played games. She is straight arrow and true blue in communication. I just simply stopped chasing women. That was then and this is now- three years of celibacy later, and it is eating me alive. I welcome your thoughts, thanks.
I have not had sex for three years. My beautiful Ukrainian girlfriend is trapped behind the battle zone in East Ukraine. She is truly an amazing lady, and I am lucky to have her. She thinks the world of me. She could have gotten out on several occasions- she is strong and healthy and could make the long night trek. She is staying with her little old lady mom and invalid brother. They cannot travel as easily as she. The only realistic way is by vehicle, but those tend to get shot when approaching the lines. I am able to get money to her each month, so they have water, electricity and food (dog food too, for the two rescue dogs). It is a costly transaction, passing through many hands to get to her, but it works. We speak by phone (Skype) 2-4 times each week, depending on her signal quality. Here is my problem: I am excruciatingly horny and lonely. I am generally a very upbeat, self motivated man. I have a great job and enjoy my colleagues. I really, really, REALLY want to fuck. Really, like seriously really. Dating Mary Palm and her five sisters who live on the end of wrist street is neither wonderful nor satisfying. I want a living, gasping, thrashing female, loving my big cock inside her every day. Yep, that's what I want. My girlfriend wants it too, but she is not here. She is horny as hell too. If the circumstances present themselves and I run into an attractive lady who is interested, I will go down like a poled ox. I know this. I am hunting somewhat- not full steam, but I am yearning in that direction. If I have sex with another woman, I know I will feel guilty. I have a family depending on me. I will be tempted to not talk with her so often, especially if I have someone here. There is nothing I can do to help get her out. If they can get to Kiev, then she can fly here- she has a visa. It will take major political action to make an opening for civilians to escape. It has been three years, and I am eroding. When I was overseas last year, I had occasion to go to Dubai about once a month. I could have had a no strings attached, very beautiful hooker each time I went. I had the money, and Lord knows I was horny enough. I could not bring myself to do it. Now, I am not so sure. I am looking for the opportunity. When I was working in Central Asia a few years earlier, I was in bed with 18 women in my first 18 months there. Then I met my Ukrainian girl, and after we decided to have a serious relationship, I stopped all the horn dogging. The amazing thing is that she has NEVER made threats, NEVER demanded loyalty, NEVER dropped hints or played games. She is straight arrow and true blue in communication. I just simply stopped chasing women. That was then and this is now- three years of celibacy later, and it is eating me alive. I welcome your thoughts, thanks.
