robert67: Hi,
Sorry to here that you lost a brother bluespeedoz, I lost my best friend, who everyone thought was my brother, we were that close. I too didnt think I wanted to live without him, but he was a suicide victim and he made it clear in his note that he wanted me to live without him. It was and is very difficult to cope without him ( it was 4 years ago) but you just have to get on with it. I know that he did what he did because he thought it was the right thing for him. People always say that you get over it, I dont think you do, you just learn to live with it.
Sorry it is a bit off topic, but I just wanted people to know that no matter how close you are, you can survive after someone is gone, you just have to love them enough to remember.