Is there such a thing as a cyber affair?
Yesterday 10/17 I was on chat and for the first time a female wanted to "go private", oooooo.
I all of a sudden became quite nervous.
I'm really a shy guy with the opposite sex, actually with all sexes, since there are only two put it this way, with people. Opening up takes a little more time with me. If there are common interests, health, politics, exercise, art and philosophy (love philosophy of life) I have no problem opening up.
So, back to my story, here i am, and the first thing I say is "hey" like I would with a guy. I get one-line I can't even remember and I respond.
Now I'm not sure if she was looking at my profile and god forbid my pics, which occured to me that that may be what was happening as there was a long pause, there was no message that she left the room so I again responded with something I cant recall what. Pause ..........and nothing.
Feeling stood up, hey best way to describe it, I could only think that, she saw my age, 55, and didn't care to continue in private, or worst (actually I don't know which is worst my age or pics) my pics was not some monster pole staring you in the face. (please don't go running to my profile at this point to see what I'm talking about, at least wait till the end).
(Well if you did go to my profile welcome back.)
Feeling rejected- hey I blogged about this recently, since it appeared that she did not leave the room, I did the most ungentlemanly thing leaving without as much as a "nice chatting with you"!
anyway that was my introduction. Now to the title of this blog. As described above I was nervous and anxious about meeting in private with a female, woman. I'm on the DL with my wife on LPSG and everything that goes on while she's asleep while I'm on here.
A thought came to me because here I am with this woman, all my goods are freely accesible and any of my fantasies i had could be responded to less the actual physical touching. I mean she could have a cam and show me all of her stuff, and while that was happening I could be, you know, touching MYSELF! I could actually have an orgasm and cyber sex!
I'm having a cyber affair!!!!!!
Well am I, I thought? Can this be cause for her to leave me? OMG. I had cyber sex with men watching me. I watched men play with themselves in real time, cuming together. Women have seen my stuff!!!
Relax. Take a deep breath I told my self, and I did. As I realized I was in my computer room with only my fish staring at me and my vomiting bird (another blog story you can check out), it occured to me that this was no big thing, said, fuck it! (you know I'm not one to openly swear but man LPSG does bring out the darkside in you I've never said FUCK so many times in the last 2 weeks as in my whole life)Is'nt it great what annonymity can do for the darkside. I LOVE IT!!!!!
Not much of an end, but life never ends everyday is a beginning. See I love life philosophy!!!
if anyone else share my thoughts, share it as a comment would love to here from yah!
Until my next cyber affair.
Hope you all have a stroke of good luck today.
Yesterday 10/17 I was on chat and for the first time a female wanted to "go private", oooooo.
I all of a sudden became quite nervous.
I'm really a shy guy with the opposite sex, actually with all sexes, since there are only two put it this way, with people. Opening up takes a little more time with me. If there are common interests, health, politics, exercise, art and philosophy (love philosophy of life) I have no problem opening up.
So, back to my story, here i am, and the first thing I say is "hey" like I would with a guy. I get one-line I can't even remember and I respond.
Now I'm not sure if she was looking at my profile and god forbid my pics, which occured to me that that may be what was happening as there was a long pause, there was no message that she left the room so I again responded with something I cant recall what. Pause ..........and nothing.
Feeling stood up, hey best way to describe it, I could only think that, she saw my age, 55, and didn't care to continue in private, or worst (actually I don't know which is worst my age or pics) my pics was not some monster pole staring you in the face. (please don't go running to my profile at this point to see what I'm talking about, at least wait till the end).
(Well if you did go to my profile welcome back.)
Feeling rejected- hey I blogged about this recently, since it appeared that she did not leave the room, I did the most ungentlemanly thing leaving without as much as a "nice chatting with you"!
anyway that was my introduction. Now to the title of this blog. As described above I was nervous and anxious about meeting in private with a female, woman. I'm on the DL with my wife on LPSG and everything that goes on while she's asleep while I'm on here.
A thought came to me because here I am with this woman, all my goods are freely accesible and any of my fantasies i had could be responded to less the actual physical touching. I mean she could have a cam and show me all of her stuff, and while that was happening I could be, you know, touching MYSELF! I could actually have an orgasm and cyber sex!
I'm having a cyber affair!!!!!!
Well am I, I thought? Can this be cause for her to leave me? OMG. I had cyber sex with men watching me. I watched men play with themselves in real time, cuming together. Women have seen my stuff!!!
Relax. Take a deep breath I told my self, and I did. As I realized I was in my computer room with only my fish staring at me and my vomiting bird (another blog story you can check out), it occured to me that this was no big thing, said, fuck it! (you know I'm not one to openly swear but man LPSG does bring out the darkside in you I've never said FUCK so many times in the last 2 weeks as in my whole life)Is'nt it great what annonymity can do for the darkside. I LOVE IT!!!!!
Not much of an end, but life never ends everyday is a beginning. See I love life philosophy!!!
if anyone else share my thoughts, share it as a comment would love to here from yah!
Until my next cyber affair.
Hope you all have a stroke of good luck today.
