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Is it just now hitting you?... the death of your grandmother?

I hate men.
I love men.
I hate men because I love them.

I hate working for them though.

She's not around to laugh at that with me.
*sigh*

I understand that. I finished my feminist theory class today... and now that i have all this information circdulating in my head.. i don't know what to do with it. I feel as if my teacher made me realize the world in which i live.. but has not given me the answers.. I want to sit down and ask her. I think she would life and say, "How would i know.. im jsut a player in the game like you." I can also relate. I have no one to talk to another. MY parents have abondoned me. I alwasy use to tlak to my momj about everything. I don't know. I miss 'us.' i feel as if they are already dead.

Yeah but as scary as that separation may seem, it's healthy, it's kind of a fun time - even the part when you're struggling. You look back on that part when you first stake out your independence in the world with a sense of pride. Your decisions are still in front of you and if you're creative, you'll find ways to make it work.