I think it's safe to say the honeymoon is over between me and my employer. I love my co-workers in my department but everything else is shit. I'm sick of it all and it's wearing me down. My health isn't 100%. Hell, it isn't even 75%. I put my own needs aside to get to work to make my living but it's just wearing me down. I've been going to the doctor continually throughout the summer and I just cannot get my damn diabetes under control. I want and NEED my A1c to be 6 or lower again. A 10.2 is not good at all. Sitting behind my desk for 8-10 hours a day and eating lunch at my desk is bullshit. Rarely do I even take my two 15 minute breaks. Everything is just really making me feel.....depressed. I haven't felt this way for over 3 years.
I have another diabetic check with my regular doctor on August 15th and I'm pretty sure my numbers will still be in the shitter and I've decided to just take a leave of absence from work. I need to get back on a plan with regular exercise, meditation, eating the right foods, going organic, and focusing on me. Because realistically I'm of no use to anyone else, including myself, if I'm not healthy. If they can't find someone within the two weeks (yes I'm giving my employer a little planning time here), that's not my problem. Someone else can worry about payroll, bank deposits, water district payments, water district billing, purchasing, travel, etc. I just can't care beyond the end of August.
Will I return to my job at the end of the 12 weeks of FMLA? Right now I would say that I have no reason to. I need to focus on me and get myself into good health again and for a long term plan I don't see that all being remedied in 12 weeks.
I have another diabetic check with my regular doctor on August 15th and I'm pretty sure my numbers will still be in the shitter and I've decided to just take a leave of absence from work. I need to get back on a plan with regular exercise, meditation, eating the right foods, going organic, and focusing on me. Because realistically I'm of no use to anyone else, including myself, if I'm not healthy. If they can't find someone within the two weeks (yes I'm giving my employer a little planning time here), that's not my problem. Someone else can worry about payroll, bank deposits, water district payments, water district billing, purchasing, travel, etc. I just can't care beyond the end of August.
Will I return to my job at the end of the 12 weeks of FMLA? Right now I would say that I have no reason to. I need to focus on me and get myself into good health again and for a long term plan I don't see that all being remedied in 12 weeks.
