i apologize in advance for the lengthy post, but i'd like include as many details to my situation to get the best possible feedback. i'm currently 5'4, 120lbs, considered to have a very petite frame. i've had 3 children (2 with my first marriage and 1 with my second).
first my past
historically, either by luck or fate, the majority of my sexual encounters have been with guys who were well-endowed. i didn't know any better when i was younger, they were just always "big". from the ages of about (inappropriate age deleted by moderators) (which includes a 7 year marriage where i was monogamous) the range was about 7" being the smallest and about 9.5-10" being the biggest. my husband during that time was about 8.5-9". my next husband of 12 years was about 6", and mainly due to the fact our marriage was not as loving as expected after a couple years, i would seek out sexual encounters outside of the marriage. looking back, i see the trend that the more well-endowed guys i messed around with, the longer that fling would last (unless they were assholes lol). so thinking back, the longer term flings ranged between 8.5-11". the sex was always amazing with them compared to the husband at the time.
current time
i am currently engaged to a guy that i love very much, i expect this to be my LAST marriage, he is perfect in every way. however, he is about 5" at best. the sex is awesome, because i feel the love he has for me, i feel it in his touch and in his eyes. but, when he uses my toy (9.5" dildo), i orgasm on a way different level, like way longer and way stronger of an orgasm with him. we've been together about a year and i have been faithful thus far. when he describes my pussy, he says its the biggest and deepest he's ever experienced (not sure if i'm totally proud of that) but he says its a good thing and i shouldn't be ashamed of it. just a note, he is the only one that has EVER been able to get me off by going down on me. in the past, almost all of my orgasms have come from penetration.
questions about the future
so with all that in mind, here are some questions i'm hoping other women might could help me out with. do i just have a vagina that is deeper that requires a bigger penis to stimulate? it seems like there are spots they hit that just drive me crazy and i ended up soaking everything lol. i dont miss any of the guys from my past, they are in my past for a reason, however, i find myself wanting something on the side like i have in the past. there are times when i prefer the toy over my fiance. the toy is wonderful and all sure, but its not the real thing either. should i consider asking my fiance about swinging? is my body just built in a way that requires a bigger penis to really stimulate me? what are the chances i will fall back into the habits from my second marriage? should i accept my fate and call off the marriage that i've always wanted on an emotional standpoint?
thanks for taking the time to read this and offering any serious advice, suggestions, similar experiences/struggles. if this is too public of a setting, i would be open to a yahoo messenger converastion (same id as here).
paige
first my past
historically, either by luck or fate, the majority of my sexual encounters have been with guys who were well-endowed. i didn't know any better when i was younger, they were just always "big". from the ages of about (inappropriate age deleted by moderators) (which includes a 7 year marriage where i was monogamous) the range was about 7" being the smallest and about 9.5-10" being the biggest. my husband during that time was about 8.5-9". my next husband of 12 years was about 6", and mainly due to the fact our marriage was not as loving as expected after a couple years, i would seek out sexual encounters outside of the marriage. looking back, i see the trend that the more well-endowed guys i messed around with, the longer that fling would last (unless they were assholes lol). so thinking back, the longer term flings ranged between 8.5-11". the sex was always amazing with them compared to the husband at the time.
current time
i am currently engaged to a guy that i love very much, i expect this to be my LAST marriage, he is perfect in every way. however, he is about 5" at best. the sex is awesome, because i feel the love he has for me, i feel it in his touch and in his eyes. but, when he uses my toy (9.5" dildo), i orgasm on a way different level, like way longer and way stronger of an orgasm with him. we've been together about a year and i have been faithful thus far. when he describes my pussy, he says its the biggest and deepest he's ever experienced (not sure if i'm totally proud of that) but he says its a good thing and i shouldn't be ashamed of it. just a note, he is the only one that has EVER been able to get me off by going down on me. in the past, almost all of my orgasms have come from penetration.
questions about the future
so with all that in mind, here are some questions i'm hoping other women might could help me out with. do i just have a vagina that is deeper that requires a bigger penis to stimulate? it seems like there are spots they hit that just drive me crazy and i ended up soaking everything lol. i dont miss any of the guys from my past, they are in my past for a reason, however, i find myself wanting something on the side like i have in the past. there are times when i prefer the toy over my fiance. the toy is wonderful and all sure, but its not the real thing either. should i consider asking my fiance about swinging? is my body just built in a way that requires a bigger penis to really stimulate me? what are the chances i will fall back into the habits from my second marriage? should i accept my fate and call off the marriage that i've always wanted on an emotional standpoint?
thanks for taking the time to read this and offering any serious advice, suggestions, similar experiences/struggles. if this is too public of a setting, i would be open to a yahoo messenger converastion (same id as here).
paige
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