First Experience and Guilt

[TXBigGun]

So was on a trip recently and was perusing this site. An anonymous site was mentioned: sniffles.com. Being bi-curious I ventured out and found myself totally enthralled with the thought of a hook up in a new place with zero strings attached. Of course there would be dangers in the connections such as untruthful statuses, potential for rape, mugging, etc. I lost all control and decided to commit to a HU. The guy was HOT and looked just like his profile pics. That gave me some hope. Not having done this before, I identified truthfully as a long-term married man in a good relationship; definitely wanting to be on the receiving end of a blow job and the giving end of possible sex. I had no intention of going down on the guy.

Within seconds after he was in my room he was sucking me off. No more than a minute latter I pulled him into a 69 and took him in my mouth. Our chach before the HU was about size and he said he was close to what i was. In the back of my mind I knew this would answer my question as to what my own cock would feel like in my mouth. I had dreamt of sucking a guy off for decades and never took actions to do such. Within minutes I was fingearring his ass. Then something just came over me and I started to rim him. I had always watched bisex porn and thought I would never do that. It was intoxicating in the moment to perform this service. Very strange and almost natural stimulation. After about 30 minutes of sucking each other off and me rimming his ass. He flipped on his back and moved to place my cock in his ass. Again, this really was looking to do. Putting my toe in the water turned into jumping into the laKe..

It is a very surreal experience. I am still in denial that it happened. Although I had two drinks with dinner, the buzz had already left as the encounter was 5 hours later. I do not do any type of recreational drug so there was not any false stimulation.

Where I am at today is a desire to make love to my wife every day for the next 10 years to get the guilt out of my mind. On the other hand, i want too have this guy in bed with me sucking me off while I eat my wife’s pussy. I want to see her sucking him off while I plow his ass.

I feel guilt for not being faithful for the first time ever. Yet, the desire to have more sex is stronger than by the guilt. I know you guys are not professional counselors. There are multiple people I could talk to about my bisexual desires, but none that I can confide in regarding the unfaithfulness. Just don’t know what to do to ensure this doesnt happen again and how to keep from breaking the heart of my wife, whom I truly love.

 

[friskydawg]

So was on a trip recently and was perusing this site. An anonymous site was mentioned: sniffles.com. Being bi-curious I ventured out and found myself totally enthralled with the thought of a hook up in a new place with zero strings attached. Of course there would be dangers in the connections such as untruthful statuses, potential for rape, mugging, etc. I lost all control and decided to commit to a HU. The guy was HOT and looked just like his profile pics. That gave me some hope. Not having done this before, I identified truthfully as a long-term married man in a good relationship; definitely wanting to be on the receiving end of a blow job and the giving end of possible sex. I had no intention of going down on the guy.

Within seconds after he was in my room he was sucking me off. No more than a minute latter I pulled him into a 69 and took him in my mouth. Our chach before the HU was about size and he said he was close to what i was. In the back of my mind I knew this would answer my question as to what my own cock would feel like in my mouth. I had dreamt of sucking a guy off for decades and never took actions to do such. Within minutes I was fingearring his ass. Then something just came over me and I started to rim him. I had always watched bisex porn and thought I would never do that. It was intoxicating in the moment to perform this service. Very strange and almost natural stimulation. After about 30 minutes of sucking each other off and me rimming his ass. He flipped on his back and moved to place my cock in his ass. Again, this really was looking to do. Putting my toe in the water turned into jumping into the laKe..

It is a very surreal experience. I am still in denial that it happened. Although I had two drinks with dinner, the buzz had already left as the encounter was 5 hours later. I do not do any type of recreational drug so there was not any false stimulation.

Where I am at today is a desire to make love to my wife every day for the next 10 years to get the guilt out of my mind. On the other hand, i want too have this guy in bed with me sucking me off while I eat my wife’s pussy. I want to see her sucking him off while I plow his ass.

I feel guilt for not being faithful for the first time ever. Yet, the desire to have more sex is stronger than by the guilt. I know you guys are not professional counselors. There are multiple people I could talk to about my bisexual desires, but none that I can confide in regarding the unfaithfulness. Just don’t know what to do to ensure this doesnt happen again and how to keep from breaking the heart of my wife, whom I truly love.

It’s complicated and there is really nothing you can do except either suppress your urges (very hard to do) and stay totally faithful to your wife or go with it every now and then, especially if you travel for business. You nailed it on the head when you said the desire for more sex is stronger than the guilt. Kudos to you for “jumping in the lake” and trying it all so that you had a good experience and had a taste (literally) of things (it would have been nice if he had rimmed you also though. Just sayin’). Unfortunately for you, your urges for sex with a man are only going to get stronger now that you know how good it feels. How you handle them is up to you but I see the urges winning out as long as you have utmost discretion and protect your marriage. You need a guy in the same boat as you to have sex with so that you can be supportive of each other.

 

[TXBigGun]

It’s complicated and there is really nothing you can do except either suppress your urges (very hard to do) and stay totally faithful to your wife or go with it every now and then, especially if you travel for business. You nailed it on the head when you said the desire for more sex is stronger than the guilt. Kudos to you for “jumping in the lake” and trying it all so that you had a good experience and had a taste (literally) of things (it would have been nice if he had rimmed you also though. Just sayin’). Unfortunately for you, your urges for sex with a man are only going to get stronger now that you know how good it feels. How you handle them is up to you but I see the urges winning out as long as you have utmost discretion and protect your marriage. You need a guy in the same boat as you to have sex with so that you can be supportive of each other.

Thanks for your comments, friskydawg! I shared today with someone who is a counselor and she gave me some very good advice as well. For the first time in days I am at peace.

 

[ManchesterTom]

Thanks for your comments, friskydawg! I shared today with someone who is a counselor and she gave me some very good advice as well. For the first time in days I am at peace.

Be kind to yourself.

 

[friskydawg]

Thanks for your comments, friskydawg! I shared today with someone who is a counselor and she gave me some very good advice as well. For the first time in days I am at peace.

I'm so glad to hear this. It's good that you got your feelings out so that you can get some support. You aren't alone!

 

[dickthrobbing]

Where I am at today is a desire to make love to my wife every day for the next 10 years to get the guilt out of my mind. On the other hand, i want too have this guy in bed with me sucking me off while I eat my wife’s pussy. I want to see her sucking him off while I plow his ass.

I feel guilt for not being faithful for the first time ever. Yet, the desire to have more sex is stronger than by the guilt. I know you guys are not professional counselors. There are multiple people I could talk to about my bisexual desires, but none that I can confide in regarding the unfaithfulness. Just don’t know what to do to ensure this doesnt happen again and how to keep from breaking the heart of my wife, whom I truly love.

There 2 guilt trips you are suffering from -

The MM sex is one I certainly encountered it took time to process, even after several more MM encounters, butt I realised MM sex turned me on and I desired it, now I accept I am Bi

The other guilt trip is the unfaith one, this perhaps the most difficult, one which you probably know the answer too.

 

[alantowne]

I feel guilt for not being faithful for the first time ever. Yet, the desire to have more sex is stronger than by the guilt. I know you guys are not professional counselors. There are multiple people I could talk to about my bisexual desires, but none that I can confide in regarding the unfaithfulness. Just don’t know what to do to ensure this doesnt happen again and how to keep from breaking the heart of my wife, whom I truly love.

You had fun and you experienced something completely different, and it sounds like it was actually quite enjoyable and hot for you. Would you rather have done it? Or suppressed the urge and gone to your death bed later in life wondering, "What if?"

 

[figgnewton]

Does anyone wonder about catching STD's ? Even catching herpes would be bad enough .

 

[alexD37]

Does anyone wonder about catching STD's ? Even catching herpes would be bad enough .

He stated that he feared “untruthful status” but he ultimately chose to go through with it. He’s asking for help

 

[johnweek1]

Honestly, I have never cheated on a partner; the guilt and self-hatred would literally tear me apart. You will do what you decide, but me personally, I would have to own up to it because I could not live with myself feeling like I betrayed the love of my life.

So my advice is to come clean. However, this may not be the advice that you want to follow, or want to hear and I understand that. But you asked for advice, and that is what I offer. On that note, does your wife know you are bi? Have you had conversations about your bi side if so? If you guys can work through things, you could be opening up an entirely new world of sexual possibilities, with your wife, or with her blessing, if you talk things over.

In summary, you need to talk to wife, find out what is ok with her and what is not, and then decide what YOU are ok with and not ok with. For all we know, that fantasy you have with your wife and your male partner could be a reality after talking things over.

The best kind of relationships have no secrets.

 

[locutusofborg]

Did you manage to cum inside his ass tho? Because that makes it worth it

May advice is to not deny yourself what you want. Monogamy isn’t natural in my opinion. What to do about telling your wife is more complicated tho… in a MM relationship opening up is much more widely accepted. It a lot rarer in MF relationships so you have to just broach the issue of your bisexuality and see how she reacts. Which will guide how she’d react to an open relationship or what happened

 

[bi2]

Did you manage to cum inside his ass tho? Because that makes it worth it

May advice is to not deny yourself what you want. Monogamy isn’t natural in my opinion. What to do about telling your wife is more complicated tho… in a MM relationship opening up is much more widely accepted. It a lot rarer in MF relationships so you have to just broach the issue of your bisexuality and see how she reacts. Which will guide how she’d react to an open relationship or what happened

My fuckbuddy a much older married man for several decades in his 60s, is in a sexless relationship with his wife. He loves and adores her and his family, so leaving her is not an option. Not that I would want him to leave her either, as I am only into the physical aspect of being with a man, nothing else as is he.

With my fuckbuddy his wife has lost all interest, so I provide that healthy sexual outlet and gratification that he desires. He messages me to arrange a time, I agree, we hookup, we fuck, we then go our seperate ways afterwards till the nex time. For us its just enjoyable meaningless sex. He enjoys being with me because unlike with another woman, there is always the drama and stress involved. We provide each other a simple and convenient outlet that we can explore without any of the complications of a MF relationship.

 

[figgnewton]

My fuckbuddy a much older married man for several decades in his 60s, is in a sexless relationship with his wife. He loves and adores her and his family, so leaving her is not an option. Not that I would want him to leave her either, as I am only into the physical aspect of being with a man, nothing else as is he.

With my fuckbuddy his wife has lost all interest, so I provide that healthy sexual outlet and gratification that he desires. He messages me to arrange a time, I agree, we hookup, we fuck, we then go our seperate ways afterwards till the nex time. For us its just enjoyable meaningless sex. He enjoys being with me because unlike with another woman, there is always the drama and stress involved. We provide each other a simple and convenient outlet that we can explore without any of the complications of a MF relationship.

Wow, sounds good. Win, win situation no drama just pure sex and probably very intense sex. Mutual oral, 69 and fuck. I'm stra8 but like to read the postings. Not much sex with wife here either. Hmmmmm....

 

[bi2]

Wow, sounds good. Win, win situation no drama just pure sex and probably very intense sex. Mutual oral, 69 and fuck. I'm stra8 but like to read the postings. Not much sex with wife here either. Hmmmmm....

Yes youre definitely right about that, its a clear win-win situation for us.

We both view each other as the fortunate one, so that helps in the sense that we both appreciate what the other brings. He is a very dominant strong aggressive alpha Top male and I am very much a passive weak "feminine" bottom. The roles we undertake is what we desire from the other, so we compliment each other very well.

The sex is definitely hot intense and enjoyable. The fact that we can only do it every so often, amplifies the intensity when we do hook up. When we meet up, sex is expected straight away, no games, no agenda's, we both enjoy it together and then leave our seperate ways when its over.

The only time it actually differs, is when instead of us having hot sex of fucking and sucking, there are times (although its only occasional) that he likes to be intimate and close with me. This is when the sex is very intimate, passionate and he wants to "make love" to me. I dont question him, I just accept that he wants and desires something different, I go along with whatever he wants to do. For me the biggest telltale sign that he wants a session of love making as opposed to fucking, is when we start an encounter with him just kissing me passionately, instead of him ripping my clothes off from the start of the encounter, lol.

 

[hungthickone]

It’s complicated and there is really nothing you can do except either suppress your urges (very hard to do) and stay totally faithful to your wife or go with it every now and then, especially if you travel for business. You nailed it on the head when you said the desire for more sex is stronger than the guilt. Kudos to you for “jumping in the lake” and trying it all so that you had a good experience and had a taste (literally) of things (it would have been nice if he had rimmed you also though. Just sayin’). Unfortunately for you, your urges for sex with a man are only going to get stronger now that you know how good it feels. How you handle them is up to you but I see the urges winning out as long as you have utmost discretion and protect your marriage. You need a guy in the same boat as you to have sex with so that you can be supportive of each other.

perfect, and my own experience!

 

[locutusofborg]

Yes youre definitely right about that, its a clear win-win situation for us.

We both view each other as the fortunate one, so that helps in the sense that we both appreciate what the other brings. He is a very dominant strong aggressive alpha Top male and I am very much a passive weak "feminine" bottom. The roles we undertake is what we desire from the other, so we compliment each other very well.

The sex is definitely hot intense and enjoyable. The fact that we can only do it every so often, amplifies the intensity when we do hook up. When we meet up, sex is expected straight away, no games, no agenda's, we both enjoy it together and then leave our seperate ways when its over.

The only time it actually differs, is when instead of us having hot sex of fucking and sucking, there are times (although its only occasional) that he likes to be intimate and close with me. This is when the sex is very intimate, passionate and he wants to "make love" to me. I dont question him, I just accept that he wants and desires something different, I go along with whatever he wants to do. For me the biggest telltale sign that he wants a session of love making as opposed to fucking, is when we start an encounter with him just kissing me passionately, instead of him ripping my clothes off from the start of the encounter, lol.

How’s your love making differ from normal

 

[BigAl9]

I was married, MF, for many years. From my early years Inhad desires to be with men. I suppressed these urges for many years. My wife died. I remarried, again an MF marriage. This was a very unhappy situation. I divorced. I then pursued MM HUs. I did this for several years. Yes, there were moments of extreme quilt in all of the above mentioned situations. Within the past few years I finally admitted to myself that I am bisexual. Today I am happily "out." I have a boyfriend in an open relationship. He knows that I am bi and does not disapprove. We are a very happy couple.

 

[TXBigGun]

Thanks for sharing. Fell much the same way. If she passes before I do I see myself in the same situation you are currently in.

 

[Lakeshore]

In the 70s I had a male friend I'd get together with for oral and anal. It always made me feel guilty, and it made me feel like I had dishonored my long time girlfriend.
After being married for over 30 years (MF) I couldn't deny my urges for sucking cock and being topped. I got together with a married man to suck his cock and he sucked mine, then he fucked me. We were each other's FWB for years, and it still makes me feel guilty.
I still get together with a married man once a month or so, and still feel guilty.

 

[TXBigGun]

In the 70s I had a male friend I'd get together with for oral and anal. It always made me feel guilty, and it made me feel like I had dishonored my long time girlfriend.
After being married for over 30 years (MF) I couldn't deny my urges for sucking cock and being topped. I got together with a married man to suck his cock and he sucked mine, then he fucked me. We were each other's FWB for years, and it still makes me feel guilty.
I still get together with a married man once a month or so, and still feel guilty.

Thanks, Lakeshore!