I was one of the lucky guys that grew up not losing anyone close to me until I was an adult. All of my Great Grandparents passed while I was a child, but I hadn't spent enough time with them to get really close, so it didn't affect me that much. Now as an adult, I have the hardest time dealing with death. The first one I lost was my Dad 5 yrs ago I cried for days and I still cry (like now) when I think about him, and miss him everyday like it was yesterday. Truth be told, when something significant happens in my life, I subconciously still reach for my phone to call him...sorry rambling. The only other person I have lost in my family was my maternal Grandfather 3 years ago, and yes still cry over that. What get's me, is that I get extremely emotional over death, even if it's not someone close to me. I just heard that a good friend's ("D") son passed away. I'm great friends with him, but had never met his son, only talked about him with "D". I started beaking up and cried when I heard. I can't imagine what "D" is going through, and it tears me apart to think of his pain. Isn't it stupid to be that broken up over someone you never even met? I almost feel foolish. Do you have to just go through lots of deaths before you can handle it properly? How do others deal with it?