the first and only bf ive had since coming out was a cop.i wanted to see what it was like when people tell me your arms feel so good around me.im 6'4.its hard to make me feel tiny.he was 6'8 320 he got to340 all muscle.its great when its good but when we fought we pulled guns I have two caucasion ovcharkas they are massive.they kill bears and guard prisons in Siberia.sweet and great if trained.i gave the attack command your dead.when he tied me up as "punishment' for doing coke with friends at a party i gave it tying me up fuck him.vlad and Rasputin almost killed him i wish they had he said he would never punch me when i saw a toy hulk fists and his were bigger.he didn't but he did slap me so hard my ear drum popped.halloween 2016 I went as Apollo.we all had to be a god.hes only ten yrs older but you know how those people who don't drink don't do shit age faster than anyone he had to be zeus.he was the only one who had grey in his hair he looked like my dad..he didn't like that.i wore a laurel wreath my friend did my body makeup so i was gold and just had on two pieces if chainmail linked together with chains there was no sides just tiny gold loin cloth it was taped down till I got hot and drunk and yes I acted inappropriate for somebody whos in a relationship but we had three ways four ways 20 ways that's was a pool party really just lots of jerking and he loved be the center of attention when he fucked me in front of everyone.he got pissy when I moved inside and the attention with it so he was jealous.anyway back to the club on Halloween he threw me over his shoulder and left.i was being playful like stop being mean I was kissing on him . we get home and he threw me like a dish towel in he house.vlad and Rasputin were not happy.the were growling keeping him in a corner so I go upstairs to change he yells hes gonna shoot my babies so I walked to the staircase with my gun and said you can kill them and ill kill you or you can shoot me and they will kill you but you cant do both.so I called them we went to bed.door bolted.about daylight im woke up being dragged downstairs by my foot.to save time he had snapped he cracked four ribs a clavicle my foot and my pelvis because you cannot fuck me unless I cooperate my ass is not playdough.people dont get that but when you have 3 inches of muscle your ass its impossible. unless you break my pelvis which he did.he did call 911. I still would shoot him on sight if I saw him.it was my first boyfriend he shoud have been a fuck not a partner.he was depressing mean and I can say further experience has made me wonder how on earth did gay become a description for all ive encountered are jealous hateful emotional voids.gay.maybe when their spitroasted tweeking at white party but I do not like the group im supposed to belong to now.everyone has shit to deal with it doesn't make them insan but because somebody got made fun of they are special.i was molested as akid I can man up and I can act like a man.i was born with a dick wtf happened that everyones a weak bitch now.if I hear one more MAN past 50 who thinks they could pass as a woman.holy god.it just makes everyone uncomfortable yet im evil for saying it puts the lotion in the bucket your old as dirt yet a franken puss is gonna make it all better.i truly do wish I had zero male attraction or just never came out I was fine fucking girls.heres how gay men are.ohh wow your cute let me make sure nobody is cuter than you and ill be right back.when they come back because they do im not supposed to ignore you.why does everyone not have a personal sense of your ouitta myleague but just incase theres someone else I cant have let me go see.I don't enjoy gay life at all
