Lex, I am intrigued by the notion that while a separation of desire 50% straight 50% gay leads down an interesting path toward enlightenment, most people that I have met would simply cast away any of that desire toward enlightenment because the act of sex becomes part of the journey. For them being gay, queer, bi is repulsive. Unfortunately because enlightenment is viewed as purely a mental-spiritual journey that casts all physical desires aside, insert the word flesh here, the current mainstream thought base their foundations of enlightenment as a journey without the body -- as to say that in the here and now I could attempt to mirror an existence as a life after death. It boggles my mind that labels exist. But they do. I have seen myself use them. And their have been times when my ignornce has offended peope. And I hope that my apologies were accepted.
Enlightenment is a path full of choices and obstalces. This thread is a choice and an obstacle. How can it not be that some people would response harshly or with pity, or in agreement. Labels strike at the very core of a being because the path of self-understanding is a quest of self-improvement. However, a portion of that quest at times is selfish. Regardless of the connotation of the word selfish, the will to discover should outweigh the will to fail. And in that regard it is a selfish quest.
The will to seek self-understanding, in my opinion, is a powerful and rewarding path but along that journey a specific danger exists, as I see it. Being too critical. Much of life is experience and blind trust that tomorrow will arrive. A new dawn brings new possibilities. And I trust in those possibilities because I have opportunity to pick which ones matter to me.