My sexuality might be heavily modified me without noticing

[deleted21700531]

Hi, I am a 23 yo bisexual (with stronger gay side) male. I have discovered that I desperately want my body to be used by other men, often harshly and in a degrading way. I couldnt resist this wish for many years, did cam shows for hundreds of people, made them cum. This affects heavily my daily life, I couldnt think anything else other than being used, not doing my responsibilities for school work. I am aware that this might be regarded as a deliberate post for arousing the readers, but it's not.

Should I get help, if I should, where? Or should I simply go with the flow? Sometimes I realize that my deepest wish is to be a slut for men and dedicate my life for this ( it is as if my body was given to me some time ago by a goddish being, and I am obliged to pay my debt by sexually serving men. I know this seems pretty toxic, but it is as it is.)

I believe I am a smart person who can manage with different difficulties of life, but this one makes me helpless. Thanks in advance for any serious comment from a person who actually cares. (I know that caring a person who you do know is almost impossible, but anyways.)

 

[xxternxX]

Psicology, Say "If it causes you to be in trouble, affects your daily life and you feel that it affects third parties" then you should seek help.
In any case, your tastes shouldn't be a problem (they are not at all) in the end, everything remains up to you :3. I hope and you can feel better.
You can do it!!! <3

 

[deleted21700531]

Thank you so much for the helping and nice responses, I will close this account and will stay away from the internet. I will seek this kind of relations in real life which will make it realistic in terms of my "real" expectations from sex...

 

[deleted4542811]

Stay away from sissy porn

 

[ItalTony9]

Hi, I am a 23 yo bisexual (with stronger gay side) male. I have discovered that I desperately want my body to be used by other men, often harshly and in a degrading way. I couldnt resist this wish for many years, did cam shows for hundreds of people, made them cum. This affects heavily my daily life, I couldnt think anything else other than being used, not doing my responsibilities for school work. I am aware that this might be regarded as a deliberate post for arousing the readers, but it's not.

Should I get help, if I should, where? Or should I simply go with the flow? Sometimes I realize that my deepest wish is to be a slut for men and dedicate my life for this ( it is as if my body was given to me some time ago by a goddish being, and I am obliged to pay my debt by sexually serving men. I know this seems pretty toxic, but it is as it is.)

I believe I am a smart person who can manage with different difficulties of life, but this one makes me helpless. Thanks in advance for any serious comment from a person who actually cares. (I know that caring a person who you do know is almost impossible, but anyways.)

At least in this conversation, It sounds like an obsession, rather than a desire.
ONE IDEA: I mean, if you just masturbated, would the desire (for the moment) go away?
IDEA 2: Perhaps it would be good to find out more WHY this is at the top of your mind? counseling of some sort might be of help. Do yu know others with this same desire?

 

[alpha_centauri]

See a therapist. Just because you have this sex fantasy does not mean you have to act on it, or if/when you do make it a reality do it with men who you know extremely well who know your limits/desires and hard no/limits of what you will not do, use condoms/have safe sex, set up a safe word/signal etc.

 

[PutItInHere691]

There came a time I needed to wake up and quit letting my dixk and ass do all the thinking .. I’d do threesomes orgies gangbangs and stuff just as long I got dick one way or another.. finally about 30 I decided to quit letting my dick do all the thinking then I think about all the shit I did as many as I can remember and all and think damn what was wrong with me.. but a year later I had sex with a guy and it went back to same thing ..

Staying off the internet isn’t the answer .. just need willpower to change ways .. because if don’t do cam stuff then you will do something else to help others get off but more hands on