Hey, I'm glad I found this forum. I'm 32, have had a GF for 9 years and several girl lovers while very few "gay" experiences. It's really interesting that you can describe your orientation on this forum by percentages. I wonder if someone has the same issue as I do. I see myself as straight. I can't look at a guy and feel attracted. The problem is, I fantasize about being fucked and sucking cock. Every now and then, I watch bi/gay/ts porn or girls with strapon fucking guys. I have experimented with anal sex using dildos with my ex and had some amazing orgasms. I am very attracted to pre-op trannies. I fucked a beautiful one in Rio de Janeiro and was fucked by another. The problem is, I'm not totaly confortable with having sex with a man and maybe not attracted enough. The idea is a bit revolting to me. I hate too the Idea of kissing a guy and I'm attracted by feminine, not masculine energy, if you know what I mean. Softness, vulnerability, sweetness, surrender, etc... I see my thing with men/dick more as a kink/fantasy than homossexuality. What turns me on is the surrender or "humiliation" and "dirtiness" of being fucked and the actual anal stimulation which is indescribable. With men I had one experience with a guy from the internet where I was top and bottom. Didn't realy enjoy it that much and for a while I thought "I'm definately straight". I also masturbated a guy once who had a nice and big cock which sometimes I regret not having sucked when he asked if I would. Botomline is I don't really know what to do. I have these desires but they come and go and while most of the time I think its not worth the trouble and guilt sometimes its like: "man, I wish I could have it now". The point of this post is to "put it out there" and discuss something I can't share elsewhere. I appreciate any input.