Agh!!!!!!!!!!!! Life!!!!!!

I don't know if anyone would read this... but either way its a good venting system....

let me start small and work my way up

i am an 18 yr old druggie, which seems to chew up most of my money and life.... which i hate yet i cant stop the boozing and smoking...

Because quite frankly i would kill myself otherwise....:biggrin1: i find that amusing, i dont know about anyone else... but i am dark like that

I guess the real reason for all my pain is cause i am sexually attracted to both sexes... doomed to get a chubby at the slightest of touch(18... HORMONES!!!!! MUST... SEX.... NOW!!!!!) and yet i cannot find the confidence to approach anyone to ask out....

plus i am kinda goofy looking in a good way...
i sorta look like Robert Pattensin (even got the same middle name... creepy no?) but slightly less chiseled (you would think that with the constant drug taking i would have fine hollow cheeks... but no )

its weird, once i start talking i cant shut up!!! but i just cant approach... my heart starts going like a drum... i start to sweat.. so i just gave up and masturbate like an absolutely desperate motherfucker (YES... yes i do :tongue

so i guess that is a short burst of what i am... but not the whole fucked story of my life... not claiming that other people dont have fucked up circumstances ( i HATE people like that with a passion bordering on homicidal)

if people read this and respond... i wills keep going

for now....
peace love and mungbeans
18 yr old South Australian

cool quote for all (i love good sayings like a raging man whore loves cock... seriously)

Some people are still unaware that reality contains unparalleled beauties.
The fantastic and unexpected, the ever-changing and renewing is nowhere so exemplified
as in real life itself.
-Berenice Abbott