I get this question a lot. It is something that gets asked over and over and deserves a blog entry.
I didn’t really have anything to compare my dick to in high school other than some porn pictures I found on the internet. I didn’t have internet at my house so I had to sneak in peaks in the school computer lab and at work when no one was around. I started to save some of the digital pictures on a little disk drive. Those were before the days of usb flash drives.
I digressed and that is a different story for a different day, porn at work.
Once I got to college, there were all sorts of different guys around. I was pretty shy but was terrified someone would find out I was gay. The guys I hung around with had made some comments about some dudes in the dorm and it was obvious these rural dudes just didn’t understand. Over time in college I heard about crimes committed against gay dudes and some of the things that happened and it just closed me up a bit more.
I eventually moved from that dorm to a different dorm where the tensions and dynamics were much different. This is where I would have my first blow job and sexual experience. I will save that story for another day as well.
The dude that ended up being my first had a great smile, was good at sucking dick, but I wondered why his dick was so small. This was somewhat of a theme for a bit in college, the dudes I would find seemed to just be blown away by it, lots would just drop to their knees, give some head and be out the door. It wasn’t tons of guys, I didn’t really start opening up until my senior year of college. For me my dick looked like the stuff in magazines and on the internet but maybe a little different in shape. I was a bit self conscious about the curve. One guy I am still friends was about the third guy I let play with it. He told me my dick was really made for porn, and it was definitely a porn star dick. I took it as flattery. Guys just trying to build up my ego. Eventually I started hearing it from other dudes that encountered it. About the third or fourth time I heard this I said back, “I don’t understand why people say that.”
I got sat down in the living room to be told it just wasn’t normal and how hard it was and that was why I didn’t get to really fuck him, because it hurt just for me to be inside. He was definitely down to see if he could but it just was too difficult. I thought it was a cop out of why I didn’t get to act out the scene I had been shown of a Bel Ami porn, and when I got hard it was go time to try.
It took a guy running away from it after he saw it and said, “ain’t no way” and got out that door so fast. That was when I realized it was different. The first Boyfriend I had was senior year in college and he told everyone it was huge. He even would tell people that he previously hooked up with how much bigger I was and it became this rumor for a while. Then somewhat of a mini legend.
There have been times I got jokes about it, one that comes to mind was “what do you feed that donkey dick?” It wasn’t someone that I was hooking up with but saw it in the same room while he was hooking up with a dude I brought into the room for him. I was busy with the guy that I had found, I know he didn’t mean anything by it but he was a bit freaked out by it.
Other guys have laughed and taken it as a personal challenge to see how much they can fit in their mouth, or butt. Some failed, some succeeded and some run away. At the end of the day, it is something I have learned to accept and be proud of.
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I didn’t really have anything to compare my dick to in high school other than some porn pictures I found on the internet. I didn’t have internet at my house so I had to sneak in peaks in the school computer lab and at work when no one was around. I started to save some of the digital pictures on a little disk drive. Those were before the days of usb flash drives.
I digressed and that is a different story for a different day, porn at work.
Once I got to college, there were all sorts of different guys around. I was pretty shy but was terrified someone would find out I was gay. The guys I hung around with had made some comments about some dudes in the dorm and it was obvious these rural dudes just didn’t understand. Over time in college I heard about crimes committed against gay dudes and some of the things that happened and it just closed me up a bit more.
I eventually moved from that dorm to a different dorm where the tensions and dynamics were much different. This is where I would have my first blow job and sexual experience. I will save that story for another day as well.
The dude that ended up being my first had a great smile, was good at sucking dick, but I wondered why his dick was so small. This was somewhat of a theme for a bit in college, the dudes I would find seemed to just be blown away by it, lots would just drop to their knees, give some head and be out the door. It wasn’t tons of guys, I didn’t really start opening up until my senior year of college. For me my dick looked like the stuff in magazines and on the internet but maybe a little different in shape. I was a bit self conscious about the curve. One guy I am still friends was about the third guy I let play with it. He told me my dick was really made for porn, and it was definitely a porn star dick. I took it as flattery. Guys just trying to build up my ego. Eventually I started hearing it from other dudes that encountered it. About the third or fourth time I heard this I said back, “I don’t understand why people say that.”
I got sat down in the living room to be told it just wasn’t normal and how hard it was and that was why I didn’t get to really fuck him, because it hurt just for me to be inside. He was definitely down to see if he could but it just was too difficult. I thought it was a cop out of why I didn’t get to act out the scene I had been shown of a Bel Ami porn, and when I got hard it was go time to try.
It took a guy running away from it after he saw it and said, “ain’t no way” and got out that door so fast. That was when I realized it was different. The first Boyfriend I had was senior year in college and he told everyone it was huge. He even would tell people that he previously hooked up with how much bigger I was and it became this rumor for a while. Then somewhat of a mini legend.
There have been times I got jokes about it, one that comes to mind was “what do you feed that donkey dick?” It wasn’t someone that I was hooking up with but saw it in the same room while he was hooking up with a dude I brought into the room for him. I was busy with the guy that I had found, I know he didn’t mean anything by it but he was a bit freaked out by it.
Other guys have laughed and taken it as a personal challenge to see how much they can fit in their mouth, or butt. Some failed, some succeeded and some run away. At the end of the day, it is something I have learned to accept and be proud of.
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