*sigh* I didn't tell many people on here, but I met a guy recently through Craigslist. I randomly posted an ad there, mostly out of boredom and curiosity, and this great guy replied. He was my type, I was his, and we hit it off great. We talked on the phone, online, and in texts constantly. I fell asleep thinking about him and he was my first thought upon waking. I even had dreams about him. He was intelligent, gregarious, and generous. I thought I had finally met someone worth pursuing. So yesterday, we got together at Starbuck's to meet for the first time. It went well! We hung out there for about an hour and a half, and when we left, I gave him a hug and a sweet kiss. I NEVER give the first kiss, but I had to kiss him. It was perfect. He seemed to think so too. Then today, I hop on Facebook and search his name so I can add him on there. I pull up his page, and lo and behold, it says he's engaged... in his news feed, or whatever it's called, it said that he had recently (this morning) made a comment on a girls page. I go to see the comment and it says, "Not much, just planning wedding stuff." What the fuck? So I tell him about his page saying he's engaged, he laughs it off and says, "Wow, that's old crap. I hardly use Facebook anymore, I need to change that." This was wrong for two reasons. For one, he was obviously quite engaged, judging from what he had said to that friend of his... either that, or he was lying to her about still being engaged. And two, his news feed had showed him updating his status at least once a day for the past few days. So he was still using it regularly. So after he lied to me a second time, I tell him about the comment I saw on the girls page. He finally broke down and told me the truth, but it still hurts, and now everything he tells me is subject to speculation.
He went on this big tirade about how when he first met his fiance, they were very much in love... but then things started going downhill, but his parents didn't want him breaking up with her. I guess they thought she was good for him or whatever. They said they would cut his funding for school if he left her. He tried leaving her once, and they cut off his cell phone, reported his car as being stolen, and took all of his money out of his accounts. (Why any 21 year old male still allows his parents to control this much of his life is beyond me, but it still happens.) So he went back with Stacie. He *claims* that his goal is to finish school (which is in May) and then break up with Stacie before their wedding (which is in November) and then cut off communication with his parents. This is just what he says, of course. He claims that they don't see each other at all, and they don't really even talk much. She doesn't want to be with him either. She also thinks sex is evil and refuses to have sex with him, even after they're married. I don't know how that's important or whatever, but he said it so I thought I'd throw that in there. He still wants me, though. I guess he somehow thinks that even after all this shit, I'll be able to find a way to trust him and want him again. The truth of the matter is, the desperate, sad, lonely side of me still wants him... but the logical side of me wants to run as far away as possible...
*sigh*
Why does the world hate me so much?
He went on this big tirade about how when he first met his fiance, they were very much in love... but then things started going downhill, but his parents didn't want him breaking up with her. I guess they thought she was good for him or whatever. They said they would cut his funding for school if he left her. He tried leaving her once, and they cut off his cell phone, reported his car as being stolen, and took all of his money out of his accounts. (Why any 21 year old male still allows his parents to control this much of his life is beyond me, but it still happens.) So he went back with Stacie. He *claims* that his goal is to finish school (which is in May) and then break up with Stacie before their wedding (which is in November) and then cut off communication with his parents. This is just what he says, of course. He claims that they don't see each other at all, and they don't really even talk much. She doesn't want to be with him either. She also thinks sex is evil and refuses to have sex with him, even after they're married. I don't know how that's important or whatever, but he said it so I thought I'd throw that in there. He still wants me, though. I guess he somehow thinks that even after all this shit, I'll be able to find a way to trust him and want him again. The truth of the matter is, the desperate, sad, lonely side of me still wants him... but the logical side of me wants to run as far away as possible...
*sigh*
Why does the world hate me so much?
