There comes a point, we all have them, when everything and anything rubs you the wrong way. When this happens with me, I just gotta be alone....yeah, more alone than I already am. No nothing from anyone, just leave me be to sort everything out and deal with one thing at a time. Which I've done for the past few days. The hardest part is over and now to move on from all of it.
I know what I needed the most to get any thoughts to just pass through my mind and reassess what's most important in my life...my boys (nephews). Being with them at the mall yesterday was tops. My oldest nephew is graduating junior high. (God, where did the time go?) The baby was on his best behavior outside of a stroller just holding onto his hand. He cried silently and wiped his little tears when big brother took off running thru the mall to see if a certain store was in this mall. Only to take off running to him when he came back. aww...kodak moment that is forever burned into my memory. Cooked dinner, got em ready for bed in their jammies and when the baby fell asleep on the couch I picked up his little snoring body and put him in his car bed. aww...so comfy and peaceful at that age. It struck me then, I was in my element. The thing I was made for. I love kids. Everything about em. At that moment any bullshit I was feeling or going through, just left me. My boys are the greatest loves of my life and get me through everything without even knowing. They are my rocks.
I know what I needed the most to get any thoughts to just pass through my mind and reassess what's most important in my life...my boys (nephews). Being with them at the mall yesterday was tops. My oldest nephew is graduating junior high. (God, where did the time go?) The baby was on his best behavior outside of a stroller just holding onto his hand. He cried silently and wiped his little tears when big brother took off running thru the mall to see if a certain store was in this mall. Only to take off running to him when he came back. aww...kodak moment that is forever burned into my memory. Cooked dinner, got em ready for bed in their jammies and when the baby fell asleep on the couch I picked up his little snoring body and put him in his car bed. aww...so comfy and peaceful at that age. It struck me then, I was in my element. The thing I was made for. I love kids. Everything about em. At that moment any bullshit I was feeling or going through, just left me. My boys are the greatest loves of my life and get me through everything without even knowing. They are my rocks.
