Update on my brother.

Well, his situation is starting to get scarier. They did a catscan on him yesterday only to find out that he's not really getting any better. One of his abscesses showed no improvement, the other only showed mild improvement. (I guess he only has two?) And they also think that his body is metabolizing the antibiotics. I guess they are going to do some more research and talk to some more experts to see what should be done next, but I'm starting to get scared. Really fucking scared. I lost my mom almost two years ago and I still haven't dealt with that properly, I don't know what I'm going to do if I lose my only brother. It'll just be me, my father, and my son... and nothing against my father, but he isn't someone I can talk to. I doubt he ever will be. He's just "that way". I know my brother isn't exactly on his death bed yet, but he took one giant step closer, I believe. As much as I resent my brother, I've always felt good knowing that at least I still had him. I honestly feel like I'm going to have a major breakdown if my brother dies. Hell, even talking about it freaks me out. I'm panicking and breaking into a cold sweat as I type this. So anyway, I just thought I'd update you guys. I'm scared.