Thank you, everyne, for your responses. I was not trying to exclude anyone - this is a faith-based issue which those without strong faith, and even some with it, could not understand because they do not come from that framework/mindset and could not, therefore, understand what I'm talking about. An atheist, for example, would only poo-poo the existence of the manifestations of the Holy Spirit he would have had no experience with it - thus no reason to ask.
This issue is extremely complex, even for those who are life-long born-again, Holy Spirit baptized Christians. Believe me, I have asked many of those, and they cannot give me a clear answer.
I'm trying so desperately hard to find the truth, to find out God's will in this issue.
I do appreciate any interest and would ask for those who are willing to pray for me because I'm at the point in this thing that I can't see the forest for the trees. Life for me is not worth living without love. I can't have sex without love, don't want love without sex, and have only loved one man in my entire life. To make a long story short, and taking a risk at derison of my faith, God has spoken to me several times in my life and gave me a vision 4 years ago (please, no hoots and hissing/booing - I know what I received), and sent me back to my first husband. I received a cold letter yesterday from him, saying he would never have a man/wife relationship with me again - but God showed us together, happy and joyful.
To make matters more complicated, he hit me for 10 years until the last time as he had his hand raised to hit me again as I was cowering against the wall, God said, "If he continues to hit you, he will kill you." I left and waited for him to come apologize but he never did. I never looked back, forgave him anyway, remarried, but have been in love with this man for nearly 48 years. I'm very unusual. I was faithful to him for the 10 years of abuse; I was also faithful to the second husband (God took me out of that marriage of 31 years with the vision - two parts to it, just as clear with my eyes wide open as if a movie screen had been unfolded before me - because I was never happy or well-loved, never abused either though, and I was always still in love with my first even though I didn't see or hear from him.) I know what God revealed, but have waited faithfully and celibate 4 years and want to know why He gave me this vision, what He wants and expects from me. Basque already gave me some very wise counsel, thanks my friend.
More later.
