Thanks to everyone who has cared enough to comment - whether your comments are "right on" or not doesn't matter - it's the caring attitude that helps most. Just knowing there are folks here that are tender-hearted enough to offer help is what helps me.
I don't what's going to become of me. I cant figure out what God wants from me, what He expects, and that's confusing when you're a seeker of truth as I am.
Whatever it is, I hope it will be manifest soon, because I'm so weary of this earth.
Tired of pain and suffering, grateful for my blessings, and totally confused and frustrated. I need to be loved so much and it's the one thing I've never really had.
Cried all day yesterday - I never used to cry, went for nearly 30 years without shedding a tear, and now I can't seem to stop. I'm so soft-hearted that everything touches my soul - good or ill, beautiful or painful - and I cry. It's kinda bad to bend over my daughter to change her diaper and see teardrops fall on her as I'm doing it - need to have more control. I wish I had a shoulder to cry on, but I don't. Alone. Hate it....... All my friends are in other towns/cities or on the internet, no one here where I live.
Thanks all! I appreciate you more than I can say.
Janet