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I went through a similar experience with my ex. Hard as it is, you literally can't talk to him if it's as bad as you say and you are serious about moving on with your life.
Every reason you choose to pick up the phone, answer his emails, check his english, everything, will just be excuses. If you want to deal with your emotions, and figure yourself out again and who you are without him, you have to do it without him.
Trust me, speaking from experience, it's going to be tough. Lots of lonely nights with tears, lots of bad decisions, and more importantly, a lot of time. It's been over a year for me and I still haven't fully gotten over him. But I have gotten better. Just believe in yourself, and don't make excuses to be in contact with him.
I've lived in Prague for 16 years. I came here not knowing the language and strangely I survived. We (he and I) were together 4 years (known each other for 5 I guess) and he immediately took over everything. I didn't have to deal with the cable company or getting business cards printed or taking the car in for service. He did all of this plus more. His OCD behavior was so controlling that it left no room for me. He washed and folded the clothes. If I tried, I did it wrong. I'd fold the T-shirts and underwear and he'd come behind me and re fold them. Even after we broke up he'd come over, water the plants, look in my dresser to see if I folded things properly. I started closing my bedroom door and telling him it was off limits. He laughed but respected it and didn't try again.
Even now he wants to always help out. With a move back to the US he wants to help manage whatever affairs remain here in Prague. At first, I thought it would be the best thing. In some cases I really trust him. I know he won't screw me - strangely enough he is trustworthy. THIS IS THE PART I HYPERVENTILATE ABOUT. I have no one here who can help me after I'm gone! I know something will happen and they'll be no one to call EXCEPT him but I know I won't be able to.