My "Backroom" Experience Tonight

[gcbenji0]

So I went to Manhandler Bar in Chicago. I found it on gaycities. So I went - and cruised around a bit. I - at age 21 - was by far the youngest person in there. I went to the backroom - which was a dark ourdoor patio - but totally obstructed by outsider's view (if you were just walking by, the only you'd see what was going on is if you were purposely and actively trying to). So I went and it was the quietest bar I'd ever been to. I met a black man who claimed to be named "Andres." I was drunk/bored and it was the 2nd bar of the night. So I grabbed a condom out of the jar, strapped it on. "Andres" got down - blew me, but I couldn't feel hardly anything through the latex and inebriation. He asked for some anal play. Still with the condom on, he bent over, I gave it to him up his ass hole. I enjoyed it but now I feel disgusting.

I have nothing against other gays who go there but I just feel like barfing my guts out. I can't believe I did that. Never again will I go to a bathhouse/sexclub/go cruising. I just feel nasty. Even though I didn't take the condom off until we stopped, I still felt the need to go wash my penis off with the liquid hand soap they had in the bathroom.
And now that I'm home, I want to go wash my penis again with antibacterial soap.

I hate random sex.

 

[Stephenmass]

gcbenji, it does get old quick and like you, I've gone home not believing what I had done. Eventually I just stopped putting myself in those situations...hard dick, no brains kinda thing. But when the clould clears, like you it was like OMG wtf did I do? For that reason, I've learned from it to not do it again (at least I admit it took a FEW times to learn). But random, meaningless sex to me is just that, random and meaningless and it does get tired quickly and to boot, I felt the same way you did, dirty.

 

[JetID]

So I went to Manhandler Bar in Chicago. I found it on gaycities. So I went - and cruised around a bit. I - at age 21 - was by far the youngest person in there. I went to the backroom - which was a dark ourdoor patio - but totally obstructed by outsider's view (if you were just walking by, the only you'd see what was going on is if you were purposely and actively trying to). So I went and it was the quietest bar I'd ever been to. I met a black man who claimed to be named "Andres." I was drunk/bored and it was the 2nd bar of the night. So I grabbed a condom out of the jar, strapped it on. "Andres" got down - blew me, but I couldn't feel hardly anything through the latex and inebriation. He asked for some anal play. Still with the condom on, he bent over, I gave it to him up his ass hole. I enjoyed it but now I feel disgusting.

I have nothing against other gays who go there but I just feel like barfing my guts out. I can't believe I did that. Never again will I go to a bathhouse/sexclub/go cruising. I just feel nasty. Even though I didn't take the condom off until we stopped, I still felt the need to go wash my penis off with the liquid hand soap they had in the bathroom.
And now that I'm home, I want to go wash my penis again with antibacterial soap.

I hate random sex.

You go home, grab some Purell and do an impression of an Indian trying to use your penis, to start a fire. Rolling the stick back and forth, fast. The burning lets you know it's working.

Don't do it again. Can you find someone who will be exclusive? Someone you can hook up with and play together and just be yourselves?

 

[gcbenji0]

gcbenji, it does get old quick and like you, I've gone home not believing what I had done. Eventually I just stopped putting myself in those situations...hard dick, no brains kinda thing. But when the clould clears, like you it was like OMG wtf did I do? For that reason, I've learned from it to not do it again (at least I admit it took a FEW times to learn). But random, meaningless sex to me is just that, random and meaningless and it does get tired quickly and to boot, I felt the same way you did, dirty.

I know right! I hate the fact I did it because some random bar anus wanted it. I didn't even want it. I let a random bar guy who probably gave me a fake name (because I gave him one) have control over me. Never again.

Tonight I'm going to try and find some twinky dance bar and dance my ass off. No sex.

 

[jdoe86]

Some people are just not cut out for the "random sex" scene. You seem to be one of those. Some people get off on it, others can't believe they just did it. Just relax and think hard before you try it again.

 

[big_tits4big_dicks]

We have all been there. I have done things for a boy I hardly cared for and then thought, wait, wtf?!? You will feel better as time goes by and you don't do it anymore