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I ran into Patrick today. Guess it was only a matter of time. If I'm being honest, I'm surprised it took this long. Thing is, we were at the gym. In the showers. I rounded the corner and there he was, alone and naked. I'd recognize that full ass anywhere. I thought about backing away slowly, silently. But he turned. He saw me. I said hi, he said hey. That was the only conversation, but shit...at least there was some amount of conversation.
He looks good. Good as he always has. That hefty slab of cock was partially hard from the shower, and...let's just say I wanted to touch it. Wanted to suck it. Wanted to fuck him. God, I wanted to fuck him. Even more now that he hates me. I had that feeling long ago, but seeing him again just brought it back up.
I wish I hadn't been so blind all those years. Blind to...well, everything. My own sexuality. The fact that he'd been pining for me from the moment he met me. The fact that my bitch of an ex wife was trying to get into his pants all along. I don't regret letting Krieg fuck me, but...I guess I do wish Patrick had done it first. Patrick wouldn't have turned tail and run away. We'd still be having sex now. Fuck, maybe I'd be more of a bottom, who knows. I'd certainly let him fuck me, rough as he might be.
I get his anger, but...yet I don't. I know I've tumbled this around in my head for months now, but...so I let someone else fuck me first, is that such a crime? Now that I'm secure in my sexuality and know that I'm...whatever I am...I just can't help but think about what a great time me and Patrick and Krieg could have had all together. Who would've fucked who? Would we all have taken turns?
Patrick didn't fully ignore me today, but he certainly wasn't chatty. I guess that's something. Maybe I should hit him up on grindr or something...just try to have a conversation with him. Seems foolish that we're still at odds after all this time. Course, he probably doesn't want to have anything to do with me now. I'm sure the wounds have healed and he's just not interested.
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Of course I had to fucking run into Ryan today. Not only that, but we had to be naked. Goddamnit, seeing him has just...fucking reopened everything. He looks so fucking good now. Not that he didn't before, but fuck he's dropped a couple pounds, trims his pubes nicely, just...in general fucking put himself together. Guess I found out that I still want him to fuck me. Damn, that feeling's never gonna go away is it? Course, I've been after him for years...a handful of months ain't gonna change shit. Only man I've ever seriously, seriously wanted to bottom for...
I should just fucking end this stand off. This is stupid. Boo hoo, poor Patrick, got your fuckin' pride hurt, your ego bruised. Could I be a bigger fuckin' hypocrite? Fuck whoever I want whenever I want, but he does the same thing and I get my underwear in a twist about it? Shit, I was the one that showed him some shit. I was the one that helped him start to realize things...there IS that. And goddamn, I miss sucking that dick of his. I loved making him cum. Loved feeling that cock slip between my lips, the taste of his head, the taste of his cum. Loved hearing him moan, knowing I was the reason for it. That I was finally, finally pleasing him.
I wonder if I could ever get back to pleasing him again, or if he's long forgotten about me? Dustin tells me Ryan fucks him pretty aggressively...God, how I want that. How I want Ryan to push into me from behind...just taking my ass as his. I wanna feel his balls nudge my ass, wanna feel his cock inside me. Ryan, fuck me like you fuck Dustin...then maybe I could fuck you like I fuck Dustin... Shit, looks like Dustin's the lucky one here. He gets that fucking ginger bubble butt fucked hard by the both of us? Lucky fuck. Still kinda can't believe I fuck the cop that arrested me for indecent exposure, but...life's fucking wild sometimes. And he's a perv through and through.
I wonder if Ryan fucks Dustin outside like I do sometimes? On his back deck maybe? Fuck I miss that. Seeing Ryan in his tighty whities, out back...naked sometimes. I want him to fuck me on that deck. I can just picture it...he's sitting out there in his whities...I kneel between his hairy legs to munch on his bulge, get his dick hard...take it out and suck it...then turn around so he can fuck my ass aggressively...
With those thoughts, Patrick's masturbation came to an end with an explosive orgasm. Thinking of Ryan, Patrick came all over his own hairy torso, which was heaving with deep breaths. At once, he felt both like maybe he should make amends with Ryan, and also that maybe he should keep his distance. Maybe he'd been under Ryan's spell for long enough?
He looks good. Good as he always has. That hefty slab of cock was partially hard from the shower, and...let's just say I wanted to touch it. Wanted to suck it. Wanted to fuck him. God, I wanted to fuck him. Even more now that he hates me. I had that feeling long ago, but seeing him again just brought it back up.
I wish I hadn't been so blind all those years. Blind to...well, everything. My own sexuality. The fact that he'd been pining for me from the moment he met me. The fact that my bitch of an ex wife was trying to get into his pants all along. I don't regret letting Krieg fuck me, but...I guess I do wish Patrick had done it first. Patrick wouldn't have turned tail and run away. We'd still be having sex now. Fuck, maybe I'd be more of a bottom, who knows. I'd certainly let him fuck me, rough as he might be.
I get his anger, but...yet I don't. I know I've tumbled this around in my head for months now, but...so I let someone else fuck me first, is that such a crime? Now that I'm secure in my sexuality and know that I'm...whatever I am...I just can't help but think about what a great time me and Patrick and Krieg could have had all together. Who would've fucked who? Would we all have taken turns?
Patrick didn't fully ignore me today, but he certainly wasn't chatty. I guess that's something. Maybe I should hit him up on grindr or something...just try to have a conversation with him. Seems foolish that we're still at odds after all this time. Course, he probably doesn't want to have anything to do with me now. I'm sure the wounds have healed and he's just not interested.
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Of course I had to fucking run into Ryan today. Not only that, but we had to be naked. Goddamnit, seeing him has just...fucking reopened everything. He looks so fucking good now. Not that he didn't before, but fuck he's dropped a couple pounds, trims his pubes nicely, just...in general fucking put himself together. Guess I found out that I still want him to fuck me. Damn, that feeling's never gonna go away is it? Course, I've been after him for years...a handful of months ain't gonna change shit. Only man I've ever seriously, seriously wanted to bottom for...
I should just fucking end this stand off. This is stupid. Boo hoo, poor Patrick, got your fuckin' pride hurt, your ego bruised. Could I be a bigger fuckin' hypocrite? Fuck whoever I want whenever I want, but he does the same thing and I get my underwear in a twist about it? Shit, I was the one that showed him some shit. I was the one that helped him start to realize things...there IS that. And goddamn, I miss sucking that dick of his. I loved making him cum. Loved feeling that cock slip between my lips, the taste of his head, the taste of his cum. Loved hearing him moan, knowing I was the reason for it. That I was finally, finally pleasing him.
I wonder if I could ever get back to pleasing him again, or if he's long forgotten about me? Dustin tells me Ryan fucks him pretty aggressively...God, how I want that. How I want Ryan to push into me from behind...just taking my ass as his. I wanna feel his balls nudge my ass, wanna feel his cock inside me. Ryan, fuck me like you fuck Dustin...then maybe I could fuck you like I fuck Dustin... Shit, looks like Dustin's the lucky one here. He gets that fucking ginger bubble butt fucked hard by the both of us? Lucky fuck. Still kinda can't believe I fuck the cop that arrested me for indecent exposure, but...life's fucking wild sometimes. And he's a perv through and through.
I wonder if Ryan fucks Dustin outside like I do sometimes? On his back deck maybe? Fuck I miss that. Seeing Ryan in his tighty whities, out back...naked sometimes. I want him to fuck me on that deck. I can just picture it...he's sitting out there in his whities...I kneel between his hairy legs to munch on his bulge, get his dick hard...take it out and suck it...then turn around so he can fuck my ass aggressively...
With those thoughts, Patrick's masturbation came to an end with an explosive orgasm. Thinking of Ryan, Patrick came all over his own hairy torso, which was heaving with deep breaths. At once, he felt both like maybe he should make amends with Ryan, and also that maybe he should keep his distance. Maybe he'd been under Ryan's spell for long enough?