Should I come back?

[Tattooed Goddess]

At least this proves that Goodbye threads are kinda dumb.

Hopefully another member can learn from this.

Hmmmm....i think my post was pretty transparent about why i needed to leave. I came back upon conversations about how i should be banned for multiple identities because Not_Punny didnt understand that i had permission. So before people felt misled by me i came to clarify the issue. Being the over-worrier that i am, i didnt feel like getting shit about showing up on that thread all of a sudden when i was supposed to be gone. So let me say once again, i explained myself in this post for a reason. I thought i made that pretty clear.

 

[B_becominghorse]

kiss-kiss.

 

[JustAsking]

Rouge.
Hey, women really take a lot of shit in all walks of life, whether its in the boardroom or the bedroom. Its my opinion that there is truly a double standard that not only causes people to judge women's behavior different than men's, but it also causes women to be more insecure.

So with that, I have to say that this is a site where explicit sexual talk and exhibition is the norm. When a man posts his pics or his vids full of explicit stuff, we don't judge him at all in any way as "asking for it". In fact, on this site we respect him for it.

So accordingly, women should be able to do the same thing without attracting stalker-like behavior. In fact, there should be no correlation between what a woman displays in her gallery and how she wants and deserves to be treated.

I found your gallery pictures to be truly beautiful and it was obvious that you were experimenting slightly outside your comfort zone in terms of public display. My reaction was that I was somewhat flattered that you were comfortable enough here to do some experimenting. I have a feeling that you expected some mature and appreciative responses from people on this site, and you certainly deserved it. I am judging by your concerns, though, that you didn't always get that.

So let me reiterate that your gallery was always interesting and compelling, your courage in putting it up was endearing and some of us had the same feeling you did, that this was a place where people experiment in relative safety. If that was unrealistic, it was not your failing, but the failing of some people here.

I love the fact that you are here and I hope you stay. But I also hope you don't let it take too much of your time and too much of your energy in terms of disappointment.

You are lovely and interesting, in my opinion.

 

[B_becominghorse]

I admire Spoiled Princess and her ability to let things roll off her back. She is one tough lady who knows her way around forums. I have picked her brain more than a few times on how to deal with things.

You see, she and I are very much alike and get along. But as I told you, I used to have some of the kinds of feelings you're talking about. I am not quite sure how I worked through them, but I seem to have. And one time last year, when i had a bad breakup, Spoiled Princess was one of the people who helped me the most.

 

[B_becominghorse]

:wtf2: I have not been on your ass! :12: I befriended you in chat and our PM's have not been contentious. Either I missed a few messages or you misinterpreted them. I bear no ill will towards you.

I have to say I think njqt is a good gal, and I think she is a person of good will. She's put up with perfectly outrageous things I've said! I'm sure she wouldn't be knowingly malicious.

 

[naughty]

Welcome back, Mlle Rouge!

Though the word "support" seems to have been lost in the shuffle for the last longest, I do so hope that you can find encouragement and support here among the members of LPSG. Any form of depressive disorder is no joke and my hat is off to you for your transparency. Know that you have those who support your journey and your right to be here.
I am sorry that you have been plagued by attention that was not worthy of you. There are many individuals who have boundary issues that have been challenged by sexual addiction. You have every right to come here and enjoy chatting with others without having to deal with that.

 

[Bbucko]

We creeped you out!?! Damn! that's the last time I reveal my latex fetish in chat. :tongue:

It takes a lot to creep me out, trust me, doll.

But about 4-5 months ago, someone read a post I made regarding fisting. Fisting is not on my top-five list of must-dos, but it is something I am comfortable and familiar with. And as with many other items on the "naughty list", I will make affirmative posts on the subject on the rare occasions when they come up, as I try to be as sex-positive as possible.

So this person (with a very low post count, a lurker) sends me a PM inviting me to chat. He claimed to be a highly experienced fistbottom, but within three or four minutes, it became evident that this person, whoever he/she actually was, was mostly interested in obtaining person info about me including but not limited to my e-mail address. When I resisted, the person became very distant and weird, even for a fistbottom.

I have had at least one troll here (AndyA) follow me to my personal blog (no mystery, a link is in my sig line) and leave nasty, hateful comments there. A similar experience happened in relation to AIDSmeds.com and it eventually got very personal and quite viscious.

One cannot be too careful with one's privacy. Once the genie's out of the bottle, it's almost impossible to put back inside.

 

[Principessa]

My Dear Mademoiselle Rouge, at risk of pissing you off yet again, I have a few comments to make on your original post. Yes, sweetie I read the whole thing. :smile: First, you are far more loved and beloved than many men or women here including myself. Not one, but two people whom I have great respect and admiration for have PM'd me and told me to lay off you. :wtf2: This came as quite a shock because I wasn't aware I was attacking you. What needed to be brought to my attention is that my often brutal honesty can be perceived as an attack. I am sorry for that it was not intentional.

I know this is a weird question....and since i came back for the "Ban Me" thread i suppose i'm already here. But i stated a few of my reasons for leaving, that LPSG was was too time consuming.

Some of you do have thicker skin than others, but those like myself who have SAD, are bothered more by what others think.

My skin is a little thicker now than it was 14 months ago; and that is because I stayed when some people were HORRIBLY mean to me. I have been very open in the forums and my blog about my almost decade long battle with depression, anxiety, a personaity disorder, and bad shrinks who couldn't treat their way out of a wet paper bag. Trust me I know what it means to feel things deeply that other folks don't even notice.

I don't want to be here if I'm going to be heckled about my political beliefs or because i update my gallery often and periodically post videos on the Adult Videos board.

I will try to be good but I can't speak for anyone else. A Republican on this site is an easy target. I'm not saying that's right; but it is the truth. Hell, I even get shit from gay black men about preferring straight white men. Do you think I'm not sick of hearing them bitch and moan about that? :12:

i saw that a few people didnt want me to come back and thats their opinion even if it hurt to read.

For the record I never said you should not come back!

*SNIP* You don't deserve to be stalked I don't care if you ride through town like Lady Godiva.

There is a double standard in the world as far as sexuality goes for women and men. A man can post pictures of his naked body right off the bat and have a perfect body and huge cock and not many raise suspicion to doubt him. If a woman comes on here she is often labeled and faker and i know why. I've more than proven myself that i am a female. But i feel like i have more to prove that i am more than just eye candy.

We women have a hard row to hoe on this site and it's because of the men. Women don't post fake pics. It's the men who post fake pics of perfect female bodies who make it hard for real women! The men stupid enough to get suckered in, then scream fake at any woman who dares to enter here.

To sum it all up, i wanted to throw all of this out there because i realize where i might have offended some or just plain pissed people off. I was hoping it would start a trend of other women participating in the Adult Vids board.

:smile: That's what you wanted? You should have said so. The internet is not the best place to lead by example. Much can be lost in translation. I sure didn't know that and you never mentioned it any of our chats. I realize that many arent as comfortable doing that or are single and not sure if they want it out there for all to see. I don't have as much to worry about as others. When i saw the backlash about my posting videos and it receiving attention back in December, i quit making and posting videos.

*SNIP*​

Around the time of my leaving i was faced with something in my person life that was more serious than anything i had dealt with in my adult life and I'm still not sure how to handle it.

I've began to deal with addictions, including LPSG and i'm in the process of turning over a new leaf in my life.

Good for you! I'm not quite ready to deal with my LPSG addiction hence my being here way too many hours a day. :redface: I've made some obvious changes to one of my recognizable attributes, it not only helps with anonymity in my own situation going on privately, it symbolizes much more.

I felt so free when i could share my videos and photos here but none of it was worth it to be a nuisance. Some have told me "Fuck them if they don't like it" others have been incredibly intuitive to notice when i began to lose my way around here and correlate it to when i stopped making the vids.

When Nine_Inch_Cock left and posted his story under another name it inspired me to change some things in my own life.

Huh? What story? Where? Under what name? I never pick up on peoples writing styles I am so dumb about that stuff.
:redface: Maybe i shouldnt share these things here, but i'm hoping those who judged me solely on the visual aspect will stop and see that I'm not an exhibitionist in my real life.

I'm a very private person. Under a screen name and on the internet you can post things you wouldnt show to your family and friends. It's much easier to use LPSG as a medium for expressing your sexuality.

I agree, if most of the men on this site saw me at Home Depot pouting about the poor offering of perennials they wouldn't give me one look let alone two.
I'm rambling on here. I miss this place and i really miss what it was like when i first came. Sadly, i contributed to the combativeness that ultimately landed me in a 7 day ban.

I know once i combat some of the other issues in my personal life, which cause me to hermit myself thus resulting in being here so damn much, i wont need to be here as much

. We are far more alike than we are different. :redface: When you figure that stuff out would you send me a PM, I could probably do with a little less time here as well.

I didnt want to come back and be pushed away.
Bedheadred

I reiterate, you are far more loved and beloved than many men or women here including myself. When you leave even for a day there is a noticeable void. I can't speak for everyone; but as far as I am concerned you are always welcome here.

njqt466​

 

[HazelGod]

You are lovely and interesting, in my opinion.

Quoted for truth.

It would never occur to me to judge the quality of any person's expressions on the board by what (if anything) they choose to display in their gallery.

The more I read, the more I realize just how different and varied the LPSG experience is for other people, women in particular.

In any case, your presence here (both written and visual) has been a welcome fleck of spice, Red. I'm glad you've chosen to stick around, even if it ends up being on a limited basis.

 

[Mem]

No, you should not come back.

 

[vince]

I clicked on this expecting to find a thread started by Rugby Pup...