I'm not going to walk 20 minutes to a doctor.
20 minutes.
That is one mile. You can't walk a mile to find the answer to your problem?
And its a phobia and its irrational, it kills me everyday knowing that I'm scard of something for reasons i don't even know, im a man of logic but i've gone rock climbing without support before but i can't even drive.. and being a man of logic i no that odds are against me
As a former rock climber, myself, I can not agree that you are logical given your position on the task of walking one lousy mile.
I can not think of a single climb I went on that did not entail at LEAST a one mile hike to the rock face.
And if you WERE logical... then you would do research and be aware that Panic and phobia disorders have the HIGHEST success rate of treatment of any mental illness.
All they do to cure you is to gradually expose you to the thing you fear until your body becomes so accustomed to it the fear reaction abates. Sometimes they use valium in the initial treatment to help keep you calm, but they wean you off of that as treatment progresses.
But what I see here is that you are 19... unwilling to walk a mile to get medical help, unwilling to walk a mile to a job, unwilling to confront your fears, sponging off your parents, and perfectly content to just keep on coasting as long as you are taken care of.
So you passed out when a friend took you driving... So fucking what?
Get back behind the wheel and try again.
And keep trying until you overcome it... That is how any REAL rock climber would tackle it, like a 5-12 climb. Rope up and climb on.
My son held a job for 4 years that he WALKED 3 miles to get to.
Time for you to grow up, grow a pair, and sally forth.
The ODDS are, that you, like the other 6 billion people on the earth, can manage to survive.