As an aside: It was quite daunting responding to this post because I was unsure if I even remembered how to multiquote LMAO!
I'm not going to name names because I'm not sure how he'd feel about it. I will send him a PM and find out whether he's okay with me mentioning him, though.
Hrrrrrrm. As another aside: If you'd made this post a week and a half ago, I would have most probably gone running for the fjords, squealing like a girl. However, I met a profoundly beautiful man on New Year's Day and we've "been together" since. :smile: He has got to be one of the smartest and wisest people that I have ever had the privilege of knowing, let alone, loving. About ten days ago, I found myself in a similar situation to this, and when it was obvious that I wanted to shy away from the spotlight, he challenged my response. With this taking place so soon afterwards, methinks that the universe is on his side and that there is a lesson to be learnt.
I must admit that after reading what you had said and knowing what lies in my heart (that I need to offer in response to what you shared) I "get" what he was on about, and for that I am grateful (and love him even more).
I appreciate you respecting my privacy by not revealing my identity without first checking in with me, Megsy...and I especially appreciate you making me aware of this thread.
He and I were close for a long time, and I considered him a best friend at one point. I was able to open up to him and talk to him about things that I'd never been able to do with anyone else in my real or online life.
WHUT?!!!!! Where was I?
"WERE?!!" "WERE?!!" :smileeek:
Oh no you DID'UNT!!!!!!!
*pulls off clip-on earrings*
*rolls up sleeves*
*takes off 16" pumps*
*hikes up skirt*
:smile::biggrin1:
Indeed, I've been MIA and we've unfortunately lost contact with each other as well. I am truly sorry for that. The past four years have been quiiiiite a journey for me and have demanded a lot of my time: relocating to Mexico, returning home, being in a destructive relationship with a man, realising that I was sexually abused and dealing with all of that baggage, getting divorced (yup, you heard me - for a bit over a year), reestablishing myself and my life etc. It's been B-U-S-Y! :yup: ...however, I am also reminded that in the midst of it all, I have lost contact with truly beautiful human beings that I had come to love and appreciate so very much. I find this deeply regrettable...
It brought tears to my eyes then and it still does now.
I completely forgot about that moment in time. I admit that your sharing led to me being a tad teary-eyed too. Thank you for the reminder of a deeply beautiful and meaningful experience in my life. :kiss:
I still don't think the thank-you's I gave him are enough to make him understand how much that meant to me. Seeing my sons sparkling blue eyes and cheesy grin that Christmas morning as he opened his presents made everything right in the world.
Meggiffer: WOW! Where do I even begin? I walked away feeling subdued, honoured but above all else, as if my hands were steeped with many, many good things. The fact that you trusted me enough to render yourself bare and vulnerable to me...words fail in expressing just how deeply moving and meaningful it was for me. I will admit that it was a bit scary making that offer to you; you could have easily taken offense and not treated it in the spirit with which it was intended, but you did and it meant so much being allowed to try to help and make things a little bit easier for you, while attempting to give S the kind of Christmas that he deserved. Above all else, in the midst of the hurt and anxiety, you afforded me with the gift of seeing love in it's deepest and truest form. A love that was selfless and nurturing and without pretence...to the point of you hurting and being willing to share that hurt with another. ...one doesn't get to experience or bear witness to something like that any more. Case in point: It wasn't that I had gifted you, it's that you had gifted me, and I >hated< the fact that my offering was as humble as it was - I truly wished that I was in a position where I could have offered you more.
To my friend: I know we don't speak much anymore as neither of us spend much time on this forum and we live in different countries, but I still love you like a best friend and a brother. I hope you are doing well. I keep you in my thoughts.
Thank you, Megination. I still love you very much too. I remember one of my first posts included you in it - where I joked about how you walk around with dildoes of such great proportions, that they flatten buildings when dropped hahaha...and we hadn't even met"" each other yet. Taking a trip down memory lane makes me very grateful for the opportunity that I had to interact with you on the boards and in private. We had some of the most awesome chats ever. You are an incredibly good and beautiful human being, and I am certainly all the more richer for embracing you and allowing you into my heart. Without a doubt, you became a best friend to me too and I kinda came to see you as my kid sister. Gyrlfriend, we seriously need to paint each others' toenails and catch up.
Until we are able to do just that, know that I love you very much and that you are sorely missed! I hope that you (and S) are happy and well. Be happy, Megsy...you were made to be happy (don't make me pull out my whips and pink feather boas!)
*gives steely stare* :smlove2:
David