"More Than This" Roxy Music. Takes me back to a very happy place in my youth when I was comfortable in my own skin
Sweet. I love
Avalon. Very close to a perfect album as has ever been.
This is cool. I have a whole set of songs for just this purpose:
Always by Erasure
Ray Of Light by Madonna
Hanging By A Moment by Lifehouse. Ridiculously personal to me.
Take A Chance On Me by Abba
True Faith by New Order. Also very personal.
Brand New Lover by Dead or Alive. Silly song but makes me happy.
Once In A Lifetime by Talking Heads
Windy by The Association
Dragula by Rob Zombie. Silly but loads of fun.
Go Wild in the Country by Bow Wow Wow. Leigh Gorman was SO cute
then.
Snow Brigade by Mew. Jonas' voice soaring over a blizzard of sound. Heaven.
the ultimate song however.....
When I first heard it I had no clue who sang it or what the title was but, uh, it did something. I don't know if anyone else ever gets this, maybe it's a Piscean thing, I don't know.... there are glimpses of what I can only describe as,
everything. Hmmm.... maybe the word is
zeitgeist (thank God for the subtleties of German language), perhaps it's,
shaktipat (Gurumayi did bonk me on the head with peacock feathers once though otherwise she's Sir-Not-Appearing-In-This-Film), could even be,
nirvana.
I don't know. What I do know is that there are moments where I feel an inexplicable connection to every single living thing in the universe, like The Force, and I can experience being whatever living thing is out there or I can just sense the ultimate power all life. Sadly, for me anyway, it truly is, "a burning terror I can barely sustain," for it is so overwhelming that I can't hold that state but for the smallest fraction of a second though the feeling is so seductive, so mystifying, so astonishing, I wish I could.
This song induces that within me. It can take me close enough to the edge of it that the mental leap is possible (It isn't always. Not by a longshot), and if I'm lucky, I can do it. Leaving my body, I rise up and fly through the air so fast that everything blurs like an anime. I can control the Aristotelian elements, I can see and feel everything using senses my body doesn't possess. And then everyone, we all, become like superheros as the astonishing multiplicity of thoughts and emotions from all 7 billion people just swell within me. Time does not exist in that state. Then, just an instant later, whatever it is, is gone and I'm doing whatever it was before.
It's not a conscious thing. Like a blast of superbright light it's just there and I cannot see nor hear nor feel anything else. I'm not even in my body so I'm not sure what it is. Is it heaven? Is it nirvana? Is it too many mushrooms? What it does do is convince me that all life is connected and that there is
something enormous beyond which we can sense and reason like an ant confronted with the theory of relativity. It's frightening, fascinating, and empowering all at once.
Yeah, I know I'm crazy but what a way to be crazy!
So, uh, here it is:
Lift Me Up by Moby: an imprimatur of oblivion's threshold.
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