I married a slut, loved it, hated it

My Ex Wife. Maybe seems odd posting a blurb here about my ex. But, quite frankly, she was probably the sexiest, horniest, most open minded woman I have been with. We got along great sexually, but really had nothing else in common. No, I’m not one of those broken guys aching about his ex, unable to get over it. I just have great sexual memories of her. We divorced in 2000 and she died in 2017. When we met she was 27 and I was 23. She was 5’3, 110 pounds, fairly pretty with a very youthful body. She had good-sized, firm breasts, with wonderful long nipples, a nice firm ass and (one of my favourite characteristics) big, dangling pussy lips. She kept her pussy trimmed but not shaved. Maybe I should have suggested she shave it? Duh. We didn’t have great communication. She still lived at her parents house and would often give me head on the couch after her teenage sister and parents went to bed. A few times I noticed her sister peeking around the corner, watching me get sucked off. That was such a turn on, I often wondered how she felt, what she thought, did she masturbate thinking about what she had seen? Although my ex never came right out and said it, she seemed to love cum. More than any other woman I have been with. She was always eager to give head and let me cum in her mouth, frequently spitting it back on my cock and licking it off again. I can still picture the first time she gave me head, in fact the first time I ever got head, seeing her hand wrapped gently around it, the way she looked up and me and nodded when I asked if I could cum in her mouth. What a thrill. Instead of wrapping her whole hand around my cock while sucking me, she would just use a couple of fingers, with her pinkie finger extended, all very proper, like having tea with the queen LOL. She is responsible for my love of hearing women’s past sexual experiences. She had been with about 17 guys by the time I met her, yes she loved to fuck and suck. She told me about the married neighbour she used to fuck, how he had a huge cock and used to shoot big loads of cum in her mouth, how that big cock felt in her pussy. I never heard all her experiences but she did tell me a lot about guys she fucked and sucked, where they did it, how it felt, how big his cock was, how much he came. I have a great imagination so hearing these stories really started up my mind movies, picturing her doing all these things she told me about, I imagine how it felt to her, the sounds she made. She was pretty loud, during sex I love that, as long as it is honest. She enjoyed having things inserted in her while she sucked me..... I remember long neck beer bottles, a cucumber. She often used to yell “nononono” while we did it, although eagerly participating. I assume she had a rape fantasy. We never discussed it, another “duh” moment for me. I used to love licking and kissing those big pussy lips, watching her lower herself down onto my cock, seeing them wrap around it. She would get nice and wet, but never squirted. An issue I have with myself if that I am often too reticent, just accepting things as they are rather than sharing my thoughts and desires. Again, a reason why I enjoy women who aren’t afraid to say what is on her mind, make suggestions, be adventurous. Way too many “I should have’s” in life. My ex was so eager sexually, we did it many ways in many places, but we never did anal, I rarely came on her breasts, never on her face. We never explored fun with pee. Never took erotic pics or made video. I think she would have enjoyed that. Our marriage ended when I found some emails on our computer between her and other guys she was meeting and fucking and sucking. Explicit emails about what they did, where, how it felt, all the things that would normally turn me on. And I guess it did in a twisted way. Heartbroken that my wife was cheating on me, but also deviantly turned on by the mental images her emails conjured up of her sucking and fucking these other guys. Conflicted. So that’s my thoughts on my ex. Hope you enjoyed!