Horngry.

We had sex this morning. It was intense, it was passionate, it was kinky... I'm proud of myself.

I still can't masturbate, I get too angry still for reasons. But with him I felt safe this morning, I didn't feel guilty, I didn't feel overwhelmed. I just felt sexy, and had so many orgasms.

I'll never be "ok", but I'm getting to feel somewhat better in my skin.

It will continue to get better. Your body will be yours again...so have fun with it.
 
I’m so so sorry to read of your loss... I’ve been lucky enough to have had 3 healthy pregnancies and normal childbirth is hard enough to deal with .. I can imagine your hormones would be all over the shop and the heartache must be searing ....
Completely out of my depth here but can say to you .... life goes on, you live you breathe the sun still shines on you .. and your beautiful man loves you still. Sexual arousal in times of grief is a natural response even though it makes us feel guilty .. expressing sexuality in difficult times can often be cathartic ( if you can get your head around it).

Embrace the pain, work through that anger and be grateful - I know you will eventually start seeing reasons to be.

Love the word by the way!!
 
I’m so so sorry to read of your loss... I’ve been lucky enough to have had 3 healthy pregnancies and normal childbirth is hard enough to deal with .. I can imagine your hormones would be all over the shop and the heartache must be searing ....
Completely out of my depth here but can say to you .... life goes on, you live you breathe the sun still shines on you .. and your beautiful man loves you still. Sexual arousal in times of grief is a natural response even though it makes us feel guilty .. expressing sexuality in difficult times can often be cathartic ( if you can get your head around it).

Embrace the pain, work through that anger and be grateful - I know you will eventually start seeing reasons to be.

Love the word by the way!!

I don't love the world.. but I love that someone does.

Thank you
 
I hadn't bothered, and didn't realize it was already a thing. But horny and hungry is inaccurate. Horny and ANGRY is my feels.

So, I'm taking it over. That's what it actually means now. Cuz I say so! :innocent:
Why the fuck not, considering how some of the fucktards here co-opt words for their own use?
 
Get some real help. You need more than just the combined advice from the experts on the big dicks site.

Why do you assume I'm not getting mental help outside of this forum?

I even started a thread about it in Et Cetera, jackass.

Fucking rude as fuck.
 
Is there any update on your boss getting you paid leave TnJ?

He kept fighting, quietly on his time off.

I get a week next month. In a completely not sexual way, I love him for doing that for me. I didn't ask him, he just took it upon himself.

Fucking. Badass.

Apparently he really did fight for it. They weren't gonna do it. He didn't let up. He's a good fucking person.
 
He kept fighting, quietly on his time off.

I get a week next month. In a completely not sexual way, I love him for doing that for me. I didn't ask him, he just took it upon himself.

Fucking. Badass.

Apparently he really did fight for it. They weren't gonna do it. He didn't let up. He's a good fucking person.
This makes me happy. Very happy.

And I'm especially happy for you. :party::sun::heart:
 
This makes me happy. Very happy.

And I'm especially happy for you. :party::sun::heart:

Thank you friend.

It's still gonna be a not as fun as it would be vacation, the time I'll be taking is the week of her due date. I was having signs of gestational hypertension so they were planning on taking her early, if she hadn't passed she'd probably have been born by now.

But, originally her due date was in early August, so I'm taking that week to just be with my fella, and maybe take my doggos camping. Celebrate the short life my baby girl had.
 
Thank you friend.

It's still gonna be a not as fun as it would be vacation, the time I'll be taking is the week of her due date. I was having signs of gestational hypertension so they were planning on taking her early, if she hadn't passed she'd probably have been born by now.

But, originally her due date was in early August, so I'm taking that week to just be with my fella, and maybe take my doggos camping. Celebrate the short life my baby girl had.
I'm just so glad that you'll be able to do what's best for you; what you need to do and when you need to do it. And I'll be sending you sweet thoughts during your time away. Be well my friend!
 
Oh man... My boss is a fucking GENIUS.

My time off: I'm getting tattooed. An anatomical heart, with an orchid growing from it, roots dangling, buds blossoming.

There's a chance he's not just my boss anymore, he's a friend. A true friend.
 
*bump*

So, my sex drive is fucking out of control.

It's so weird being so depressed and angry all the time but still being so completely insatiable.

We've been having SO MUCH SEX. Snuggly, hardcore, wet and upset sex. There's been a lot of screaming out "I FUCKING LOVE YOU" moments lately.

I've been more interested in showing off after YEARS of not giving fucks to post new pics. Part of my journey I suppose, documenting moments and such.

I never got to show my friends here my belly, I wanted to but never got around to it. But now I can show off a little bit of my progress in taking my body and mind back.

THAT'S how you bump a dead thread, fuckers.
 
*bump*

So, my sex drive is fucking out of control.

It's so weird being so depressed and angry all the time but still being so completely insatiable.

We've been having SO MUCH SEX. Snuggly, hardcore, wet and upset sex. There's been a lot of screaming out "I FUCKING LOVE YOU" moments lately.

I've been more interested in showing off after YEARS of not giving fucks to post new pics. Part of my journey I suppose, documenting moments and such.

I never got to show my friends here my belly, I wanted to but never got around to it. But now I can show off a little bit of my progress in taking my body and mind back.

THAT'S how you bump a dead thread, fuckers.

Fuck yeah girl. I’m so happy for you and we got you. :heart: