I am not fishing for compliments, I just need a few answers and a little advice. Everywhere I go, anything I do, anyone I am around; no matter the situation I cannot find in a confidence in myself. I don't feel comfortable around my family or friends and quite frankly I have a hard time looking in the mirror or at pictures of myself. I feel like an ugly, worthless, no good lump of scum that someone wouldn't even take the time to scrape off of the bottom of their shoe. I feel worse about myself every single day that goes by and I don't know what to do. I think it start 6 months ago or so, for the first time in years and years my brother and I became really good friends for a while. He asked if he could borrow some money (to pay some extra bills so he could move into a house and buy a car.) and just about as soon as he had that money spent he started ignoring me again and it's been the same ever since. Mostly everyone else I know has done or tried to do something like that to me. When I look at people I know interacting with other people the love they have for that other person is always genuine and heartfelt, no one acts like that toward. Not even my mother or father. Has anyone else had to deal with this sort of thing? Maybe there is an aspect of my life I could be overlooking? Anything, I am completely by myself everyday of my life.