I think you may be "surprised" how enjoyable it feels to actually suck a dick. I'm not talking about the feelings in and around your cock (BJ). I'm talking about having a live, hard, warm cock in your mouth and physically sucking it---it is a very pleasurable experience all by itself. For me (and many other men) sucking cock is a very erotic and pleasurable sensation. I guess I'm saying you may enjoy it to the point of wanting to suck other men's dicks!! The fact that the dick is your own dick during self-sucking, the pleasure from the BJ is "enhanced or multiplied" in my opinion. Again, hope you're able to get to the point where you can lick and suck. You won't be disappointed! Peace.