So here's my story :
I am 19 and was very curious about sucking cock for the past months. As a kid (7-9years old) me and my cousin and one friend would love to play and suck each others dicks. So I decided to meet up with a gay guy to give him a blowjob because i wanted it soooo badly. I fantasize about sucking a nice big cock (especially those with big heads) every time i masturbate, although I love girls for sex, love and all that. Funny thing is the idea of sucking cock just disappears after i cum...only to come back later on.
So i met up with this guy who had a nice 7.5" cut cock with a wonderful head and sucked him off... I was very nervous, unsure about it and felt rly weird when doing it, questioning myself like wtf am i doing. However i rly did enjoy it filling my mouth, the soft and yet hard texture, the mild warmth of it and the feeling of his nice head bumping my lips and tongue...
after sucking for a while, I could tell he was on the edge and I didnt want my experience to stop too soon, so I let him suck me for a bit so his cock could cool down. It felt very good, but very strange to have a guy sucking me.
When he came it was intense, he was moaning out rly loud and sorta quaking but i didnt rly get to feel his cum squirt in my mouth
i didnt swallow, but i kind of regret i didnt
Guy's sorta turn me off and I rly cant imagine a love relationship with one xD i guess girls are still the best at sucking and at have sex!
When we were done, like 40min later i was pretty blown away ( and him too) by what we did and sort of decided that this wasnt rly for me, although it wasnt such a bad experience. I told him so, and he was cool with it. Very nice guy tbh.
However, later that night after getting home I was starting to feel horny again and the urge of sucking him was coming back, and i even woke up during the night bcos of it... The next morning i was rly horny for it and jerked off like 5-8 times in a row thinking about his cock in my mouth
I exchanged some txts with him, and he told me i gave him a mindblowing blowjob, that he felt like it was the greatest ever, etc..
However I didnt meet him again because i am rly emotionaly attracted to women, and am very afraid that sucking him again would rly make me become addicted to the point where i couldnt stop sucking him and even want to find other cock to continuously suck on!
So my question is, do any other ppl have this same sort of cock sucking obsession as me? Do you also feel like you're addicted to it and often can help but to think about it at random times?
If so, how do you cope with it? Can it be good to just suck non-stop to your hearts content until the envy goes away?
I guess sucking is really addicting, damn if i had a nice cock to freely suck on in my proximity i would be on it non stop. The only way to completely shut off that desire for me is to cum. The envy always goes away after i do, leaving me in a sort of grossed out state
I am 19 and was very curious about sucking cock for the past months. As a kid (7-9years old) me and my cousin and one friend would love to play and suck each others dicks. So I decided to meet up with a gay guy to give him a blowjob because i wanted it soooo badly. I fantasize about sucking a nice big cock (especially those with big heads) every time i masturbate, although I love girls for sex, love and all that. Funny thing is the idea of sucking cock just disappears after i cum...only to come back later on.
So i met up with this guy who had a nice 7.5" cut cock with a wonderful head and sucked him off... I was very nervous, unsure about it and felt rly weird when doing it, questioning myself like wtf am i doing. However i rly did enjoy it filling my mouth, the soft and yet hard texture, the mild warmth of it and the feeling of his nice head bumping my lips and tongue...
after sucking for a while, I could tell he was on the edge and I didnt want my experience to stop too soon, so I let him suck me for a bit so his cock could cool down. It felt very good, but very strange to have a guy sucking me.
When he came it was intense, he was moaning out rly loud and sorta quaking but i didnt rly get to feel his cum squirt in my mouth
i didnt swallow, but i kind of regret i didnt Guy's sorta turn me off and I rly cant imagine a love relationship with one xD i guess girls are still the best at sucking and at have sex!
When we were done, like 40min later i was pretty blown away ( and him too) by what we did and sort of decided that this wasnt rly for me, although it wasnt such a bad experience. I told him so, and he was cool with it. Very nice guy tbh.
However, later that night after getting home I was starting to feel horny again and the urge of sucking him was coming back, and i even woke up during the night bcos of it... The next morning i was rly horny for it and jerked off like 5-8 times in a row thinking about his cock in my mouth
I exchanged some txts with him, and he told me i gave him a mindblowing blowjob, that he felt like it was the greatest ever, etc..
However I didnt meet him again because i am rly emotionaly attracted to women, and am very afraid that sucking him again would rly make me become addicted to the point where i couldnt stop sucking him and even want to find other cock to continuously suck on!
So my question is, do any other ppl have this same sort of cock sucking obsession as me? Do you also feel like you're addicted to it and often can help but to think about it at random times?
If so, how do you cope with it? Can it be good to just suck non-stop to your hearts content until the envy goes away?
I guess sucking is really addicting, damn if i had a nice cock to freely suck on in my proximity i would be on it non stop. The only way to completely shut off that desire for me is to cum. The envy always goes away after i do, leaving me in a sort of grossed out state
