If they're mostly upset because the person is gone and out of their lives, then yes. All of those people are selfish. I'm thinking quite clearly, thankyouverymuch. You've obviously never been in the kind of insurmountable personal pain that would cause you to seek out any means necessary to alleviate said pain.
When I hear someone has killed themselves, I feel sorriest that the person was in that kind of pain that death was their only feasible solution. I understand that pain and I can sympathise with the feeling of hopelessness.
However. I feel that it's an incredibly courageous act. For someone who is incredibly depressed, it's often hard to get the motivation to do anything. To face death is an amazing strength. No one knows what happens after we die--not for sure. To go into something completely unknown because the present pain is simply too much is a bravery I don't think I will ever have. And it's a final grasp at control over one's life, when one feels completely hopeless. It's taking final control over one's life. I don't think that's selfish. It's oddly admirable, but with very unfortunate consequences for those left behind.
People get over grief. I know that sounds cold and heartless but it's true. The kind of pain that makes someone contemplate suicide isn't anything near grief; there's simply no comparison.
Lord viking1, don't be sorry. I think it's very helpful to give others an idea of what it's like.
What antidepressants have you tried?
I get scared everytime I hear this.As far as being selfish to commit suicide. I don't think so. Who is going to be hurt or even care if I do it? I certainly don't see where it would hurt anyone.
Please let's keep the male machismo bullshit out of this thread. Thanks. The fact that you have never contemplated suicide simply means to me that your life has never really been all that difficult. Everyone is able to comprehend physical pain and the gravity of it because everyone experiences it at some point or another in the course of his life, but there is no guarantee that any given individual will experience considerable emotional pain and it is quite improbable that an individual will experience the depths of despair and emotional distress that human beings can reach. Therefore, there is no shortage of people out there - many of them arrogant, self-absorbed, insensitive, macho, tough-guy douches who live privileged lives free of discrimination and persecution and any real hardship - who utterly fail at understanding the plight of suicidally depressed and who often, for their misunderstanding and their nauseating and contemptible macho frames of mind, actually go so far as to deprecate and malign those who are unfortunate enough to be so depressed. I have experienced all sorts of physical pains, including but not limited to kidney stones, broken arms and legs, being stabbed, etc... and I have also experienced what I imagine to have been the limits of human emotional suffering; let me tell you that true despair - not the "oh, I've lost my job/girlfriend" blues - is infinitely worse than the physical pain that I have experienced. I've tried to commit suicide about 8 or so times, but I haven't succeeded due to the lack of the proper resources (I don't have access to firearms or anything more lethal than booze and drugs.) Those attempts were not cries for help, by the way, since no one found out about them until long after the fact.
Anyways, what I am getting at is that there are some things in life that simply can't be understood until experienced. I am sure you couldn't imagine what sex was like as a kid, nor do I imagine that you were able to comprehend what it is to be drunk before you first became drunk. Those experiences were utterly incomprehensible to you until you had them and the same is true of hell. You will not know hell until you've experienced it, but that will probably never happen. And that is the reason why the mentally ill are treated so profoundly poorly and with not a shred of compassion in general: the average happy-go-lucky, never-gone-through-any-real-difficulty asshats can't empathize with them in the way they can empathize with a person who's gone through intense physical pain - something far more immediate, palpable, salient, familiar, and, thus, understandable to the *******.
Andro man-
Please remove your trolling ass from the premises. Thanks.
Oh... one more thing I forgot to mention.
Another reason I won't commit suicide? It's so fucking selfish. Just because you're hurting, you want to put everyone else you know in pain that will last a lifetime simply so you could stop hurting...
The point I'm trying to make, is that killing yourself because you're depressed is selfish. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If someone were terminal, and had, let's say, cancer, and they wanted to end their life on their own, I wouldn't blame them. And I wouldn't be angry for them. But if you consider the circumstances in which my brother committed suicide, he was very selfish in doing so, by thinking only about himself and no one else.
You, my friend, need help. You are seriously depressed. But wallowing in your depression is not going to make it better. What do you mean by "your friends all used me"? Is there any chance you misunderstood their intentions?What if it was only you??? i had no brothers or sisters and now that my parents are 89....it is just ME. suicide would not be selfish then......and i have had friends but they all used me....got rid of them. im pretty much alone. after my parents die.....i will be alone. :sad2:
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
No one can MAKE you feel bad. Only your own thoughts can do that. If you see the sunshine instead of the rain, positive instead of negative you'll feel a lot better.
She ostensibly had everything going for her...
This is an important point. The beginning of my last mood episode happened when I had everything going for me and at a point in my life when I was pretty happy.
I think this illustrates the divide between understanding what major depression is and what it is not.
Reading feelthegirth's post, I read pretty much what everyone who has not experienced the disease of major depression believes it to be.
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What feelthegirth and Andro Man have experienced and beleive to be depression is not the same disease that the rest of us have experienced. The brain patterns aren't the same, the chemicals released aren't the same yet they're saddled, ridiculously, with the same name.
We have to address the problem of understanding major depression through education. The only way to do that is to meet other people at least half-way and help them understand where we are coming from.
No one is safe from mental illness, and there's no really good way of predicting who or when it will strike.
Snoozan, it's actually a complete suprise to me that you suffer from bi-polar disorder as you always come across so upbeat and full of life in your posts. I wonder if you post here when you are feeling blue. You certainly do not come across as such in your writing. I'm glad you are here by the way.
I'd like to hear more about people's experience of depression. How bad is it?
Not really. A lot of people may have had subclinical episodes before and/or it was never diagnosed, but even if not it's pretty common that someone has their first mood episode later in life. My mother is one example, and I could rattle off a laundry list of names that make that seem unlikely.A friend of mine who works in mental health told me that if you can reach the age of 30-35 without any signs of mental illness then it's extremely unlikely to affect you ever.