Yes, but that's what real life is for.:smile:
It does sound like the OP should really just get past her squeamishness & start banging a few guys with big cocks. It really is the quickest & most effective way to see if you click with someone.
It's clear it's the main consideration. I've never not had sex on the first date (or night even) - so if they're equipped, see how it all pans out.
If you're on a big cock or S&M website looking for action, however you percieve yourself, you're always gonna be considered a wee bit of a tart (male or female).
Maybe it's some kind of middle class American prurient attitude that stops you from racking up a few more notches, but it doesn't sit well with wanting to be jackhammered by a big cock!
Wanting XY & Z as subsidiary qualities just gets in the way of living your life, & possibly finding emotional satisfaction & mental wellbeing in the arms of someone whose CV doesn't tick all the boxes.
Just get a big dick - don't want the moon on a stick!:biggrin1: