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To understand the significance of today you first have to know the back story
Back story
Well there is this girl at school who I like and I have class with. We started talking out of class and became friends right off the bat. The problem that I like her (both her personaility and sexually) which normally wouldnt be a problem at all except for the fact that she hangs around TONS of guys 24/7. Which again normally wouldnt be a problem but for some reason I start getting really jealous. Not "I wish that was me jealous" but "If you touch her again I will break your fucking arm" jealous. So naturally I removed myself from the situation lest I harm somebody on one of the days im not so in control of myself.
Anyway as we talk more and more we become better friends and in my curiosity I ask her one day if she likes me. She very polite said no. Oh . Thats cool I thought, Ill just chill in the friend zone I guess, nothing really new there. So anyway we start talking more and more and I beging the process of metaphorically speaking "Cracking her head open" so that I may better learn what to expect form her. and while mostly honest she would decidedly not tell me the weirdest things. I didnt think much of it at the time. Just more progress needs to be made. Fast forward a few weeks. Same exact position. Now im intrigued because nobody has lasted that long against my "Jedi mind probe" before.
So I decide to crank up the intensity dial one night and progressively tell her more and more personal thing about me except the really deep seated things. She eats it up. We get REALLY close. But she still shows resistance. So the night before last I decided to be honest with her. Not typical honesty mind you, the crazy time of honest that holds no regard for the feeling of others or appearances. I mean the kind of shit you take to your grave bearing your soul honesty. And I answered every single question she had.
She says cool.
Fast forward to today.
I had spent entirety of last night doing a term paper that I was supposed to be progressively doing over the course of 4 weeks ( It came out to 3,444 words by the way) so understandably I was a bit frayed around the edges. Burnt out if you will. Anyway I knew she didnt do her paper and I was going to offer like the gentleman I was to do it for her tonight. Not for free of course. so anyway I was trying to feel her out to see how much money I could bank for it when she says and I quote "Oh my god seriously? I Would do anything from buy you a cup of coffee to have sex with you. But if you want money it is going to have to wait a bit because I have bills to pay".
Wait...
What?
My mind was blown. Like literally BLOWN. At first my reaction was Sex!?!?! Gimme gimme gimme. But then in true form to my life the doubts came.
Is she serious?
Would she get the paper and then skip out on the deal?
Is this a deal any one could get?
Would she only be having sex with me because of the paper?
And as these doubts came to me rapid fire 1 resounding thought came clear. "Who the fuck cares? Do the paper and buy an ipod" so I said sure. Not having her paper she skipped class so after I gave my presentation in class I bounced out. I found her in the place where I usually chill and I dragged her away to the library. I told her to pick the topic so she did. The logical fallacies and cognitive distortions of Creationism. FUCK. So I carried the hefty books she picked out to under a tree on campus, where my friends happened to be sitting discussion some of the more, messed of things that I just happened to one of my friends.
So anyway one of my home boys comes up and starts talking about who he just got burnt by this one girl. Eventually it comes out that it is the girl I am currently about to do the paper for. FUCK. My mind had been gradually shifting the needle away from ipod into sex up until that moment and it killed me. It completely wrecked me. Not only had she not told me that she had something, but also fucked one of my homeboys. ON THE SAME FUCKING DAY THEY MET.
That was just incredible. I wanted to throw up. I was sad and hurt and confused and eventually it all just turned into anger. Blood boiling red out anger. I had been going through all this shit for her and then some shit like this happens. FUCK THAT. To I march up to her and said " Yeah I changed my mind im too burnt out to do it" She says its ok and then I leave. I went on a jog in 110 degree weather in all black to help me figuratively cool off but it only worked a little bit. I was still pretty pissed off.
I had decided that before I left that day I would tell her to lose my number and dont talk to me again.
So later on she comes up to me and obviously knows something is wrong at this point because I had been doing literal back flips in the grass and screaming into the sky where as I normally and reserved other than the rapid fire jokes i typically make. So she comes up to me and ask whats wrong. I say nothing and walk away.
I go up to my friend Tyler and tell him everything and I feel much better. I could still slam a guys head through a wall but at least everything wasnt tinted red anymore. And I could sit still without breathing like raging bull.
So anyway she comes up to me again and is like "Baby whats wrong?". I would pay money to know what my face looked like because the torrent of emotions I felt were so conflicting. So she walks me off to the side and sits me down. And we start talking. I dont bring up the reason why im made but rather that im just having problems dealing with it at the moment and that quite frankly I felt that I couldnt trust her. Like at all. So before I can tell her to lose my number guess who walks up. The Homeboy who he fucked. At this point we are both like wtf? Why is he here. For completely different reasons obviously. so anyway he pulls me off to the side for a bit and tells me it was a false alarm. It turns out his doctor had called and that he didnt catch anything from her and rather it was a vericose vein in his penis.
wait...
what?
Oh the flood of relief I felt.
So then naturally he pulls her off to the side and tells her the same thing.
So then me and her start talking again and the conversation shifts to why cant I trust her. I tell it it is because she is keeping things from me, which is exactly pretty true. So she opens up FINALLY and tells me everything she had been holding back. I take advantage of this knew found honesty and bring up the whole thing about offering sex for the paper. I ask her the questions that had offered to me and I received the following answers.
Is she serious? "Yes"
Would she get the paper and then skip out on the deal? "No" (of course she would say that right?)
Is this a deal any one could get?
"Not exactly Like. I dont know it is hard to describe. Its not like im some kind of whore I dont just sleep with anybody. I know who im attracted to and go for it"
Wait what? Im pretty sure we already had this conversation and you told me you didnt like me
" I isnt that I dont like you so much as I know in a relationship we would rip each other to shreds."
But your sexually attracted to me? ME?
"Yes. Very much so. There are just some people who I spot and know could pleasure me immensely and you just happen to be one of them So far I havent been wrong"
What? Why?
" I dont know it is hard to describe. It is just the the way you act you know"
No I really dont
" Like *sigh* I dont know it is just the way you are. The way you carry your self and stuff"
Um... Ok. Thanks. I think. I think your jusr buttering me up to get me to do your paper
"No I know I will have to do my paper myself tonight"
Back to the whole sex thing. Would you only be having sex with me because of the paper?
"No I was going to anyway"
WOW what? When were you planning this?
"I wasnt really planning it I was just going to let it happen"
Oh really? If that is the case it never would have happened then because my libido switch was in the off position in regards to you
" Oh haha really?"
Yeah I was under the impression you didnt like me, wait no scratch that, ATTRACTED to me, like at all. I wasnt going to waste my time.
"Haha"
Fuck. Looks like im going to have to change the way I act now
"Wait what do you mean"
Like im going to have to turn the dial a bit
"You mean like form 1 to 5?"
No I mean like from Off to on.
"Haha"
So you would have sex with me but not go out with me?
"That is correct"
Why???
"You know everything"
What? No I dont.
"Wait that didnt come out right. I mean like. Um Wow how do I put this. Your never surprised by anything. I need a man I can make say wow every once and a while"
I dont get surprised very often but I get surprised
"No you dont"
yeah I do I have just been though alot of shit
"Me too"
Well I was still surprised. Shit im surprised right now!
" Your not surprised haha your never surprised by anything"
Wait what? Im never surprised by anything? Im surprised by this whole situation!
"what situation?"
Was that a joke?
"No really what situation"
The whole thing with the thing and the paper and the sex and shit. Basically the entirety of today.
"You were surprised?"
WTF?No duh I was surprised! What kind of a normal person expects this type of shit?
"Ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha"
And that was my day.
Back story
Well there is this girl at school who I like and I have class with. We started talking out of class and became friends right off the bat. The problem that I like her (both her personaility and sexually) which normally wouldnt be a problem at all except for the fact that she hangs around TONS of guys 24/7. Which again normally wouldnt be a problem but for some reason I start getting really jealous. Not "I wish that was me jealous" but "If you touch her again I will break your fucking arm" jealous. So naturally I removed myself from the situation lest I harm somebody on one of the days im not so in control of myself.
Anyway as we talk more and more we become better friends and in my curiosity I ask her one day if she likes me. She very polite said no. Oh . Thats cool I thought, Ill just chill in the friend zone I guess, nothing really new there. So anyway we start talking more and more and I beging the process of metaphorically speaking "Cracking her head open" so that I may better learn what to expect form her. and while mostly honest she would decidedly not tell me the weirdest things. I didnt think much of it at the time. Just more progress needs to be made. Fast forward a few weeks. Same exact position. Now im intrigued because nobody has lasted that long against my "Jedi mind probe" before.
So I decide to crank up the intensity dial one night and progressively tell her more and more personal thing about me except the really deep seated things. She eats it up. We get REALLY close. But she still shows resistance. So the night before last I decided to be honest with her. Not typical honesty mind you, the crazy time of honest that holds no regard for the feeling of others or appearances. I mean the kind of shit you take to your grave bearing your soul honesty. And I answered every single question she had.
She says cool.
Fast forward to today.
I had spent entirety of last night doing a term paper that I was supposed to be progressively doing over the course of 4 weeks ( It came out to 3,444 words by the way) so understandably I was a bit frayed around the edges. Burnt out if you will. Anyway I knew she didnt do her paper and I was going to offer like the gentleman I was to do it for her tonight. Not for free of course. so anyway I was trying to feel her out to see how much money I could bank for it when she says and I quote "Oh my god seriously? I Would do anything from buy you a cup of coffee to have sex with you. But if you want money it is going to have to wait a bit because I have bills to pay".
Wait...
What?
My mind was blown. Like literally BLOWN. At first my reaction was Sex!?!?! Gimme gimme gimme. But then in true form to my life the doubts came.
Is she serious?
Would she get the paper and then skip out on the deal?
Is this a deal any one could get?
Would she only be having sex with me because of the paper?
And as these doubts came to me rapid fire 1 resounding thought came clear. "Who the fuck cares? Do the paper and buy an ipod" so I said sure. Not having her paper she skipped class so after I gave my presentation in class I bounced out. I found her in the place where I usually chill and I dragged her away to the library. I told her to pick the topic so she did. The logical fallacies and cognitive distortions of Creationism. FUCK. So I carried the hefty books she picked out to under a tree on campus, where my friends happened to be sitting discussion some of the more, messed of things that I just happened to one of my friends.
So anyway one of my home boys comes up and starts talking about who he just got burnt by this one girl. Eventually it comes out that it is the girl I am currently about to do the paper for. FUCK. My mind had been gradually shifting the needle away from ipod into sex up until that moment and it killed me. It completely wrecked me. Not only had she not told me that she had something, but also fucked one of my homeboys. ON THE SAME FUCKING DAY THEY MET.
That was just incredible. I wanted to throw up. I was sad and hurt and confused and eventually it all just turned into anger. Blood boiling red out anger. I had been going through all this shit for her and then some shit like this happens. FUCK THAT. To I march up to her and said " Yeah I changed my mind im too burnt out to do it" She says its ok and then I leave. I went on a jog in 110 degree weather in all black to help me figuratively cool off but it only worked a little bit. I was still pretty pissed off.
I had decided that before I left that day I would tell her to lose my number and dont talk to me again.
So later on she comes up to me and obviously knows something is wrong at this point because I had been doing literal back flips in the grass and screaming into the sky where as I normally and reserved other than the rapid fire jokes i typically make. So she comes up to me and ask whats wrong. I say nothing and walk away.
I go up to my friend Tyler and tell him everything and I feel much better. I could still slam a guys head through a wall but at least everything wasnt tinted red anymore. And I could sit still without breathing like raging bull.
So anyway she comes up to me again and is like "Baby whats wrong?". I would pay money to know what my face looked like because the torrent of emotions I felt were so conflicting. So she walks me off to the side and sits me down. And we start talking. I dont bring up the reason why im made but rather that im just having problems dealing with it at the moment and that quite frankly I felt that I couldnt trust her. Like at all. So before I can tell her to lose my number guess who walks up. The Homeboy who he fucked. At this point we are both like wtf? Why is he here. For completely different reasons obviously. so anyway he pulls me off to the side for a bit and tells me it was a false alarm. It turns out his doctor had called and that he didnt catch anything from her and rather it was a vericose vein in his penis.
wait...
what?
Oh the flood of relief I felt.
So then naturally he pulls her off to the side and tells her the same thing.
So then me and her start talking again and the conversation shifts to why cant I trust her. I tell it it is because she is keeping things from me, which is exactly pretty true. So she opens up FINALLY and tells me everything she had been holding back. I take advantage of this knew found honesty and bring up the whole thing about offering sex for the paper. I ask her the questions that had offered to me and I received the following answers.
Is she serious? "Yes"
Would she get the paper and then skip out on the deal? "No" (of course she would say that right?)
Is this a deal any one could get?
"Not exactly Like. I dont know it is hard to describe. Its not like im some kind of whore I dont just sleep with anybody. I know who im attracted to and go for it"
Wait what? Im pretty sure we already had this conversation and you told me you didnt like me
" I isnt that I dont like you so much as I know in a relationship we would rip each other to shreds."
But your sexually attracted to me? ME?
"Yes. Very much so. There are just some people who I spot and know could pleasure me immensely and you just happen to be one of them So far I havent been wrong"
What? Why?
" I dont know it is hard to describe. It is just the the way you act you know"
No I really dont
" Like *sigh* I dont know it is just the way you are. The way you carry your self and stuff"
Um... Ok. Thanks. I think. I think your jusr buttering me up to get me to do your paper
"No I know I will have to do my paper myself tonight"
Back to the whole sex thing. Would you only be having sex with me because of the paper?
"No I was going to anyway"
WOW what? When were you planning this?
"I wasnt really planning it I was just going to let it happen"
Oh really? If that is the case it never would have happened then because my libido switch was in the off position in regards to you
" Oh haha really?"
Yeah I was under the impression you didnt like me, wait no scratch that, ATTRACTED to me, like at all. I wasnt going to waste my time.
"Haha"
Fuck. Looks like im going to have to change the way I act now
"Wait what do you mean"
Like im going to have to turn the dial a bit
"You mean like form 1 to 5?"
No I mean like from Off to on.
"Haha"
So you would have sex with me but not go out with me?
"That is correct"
Why???
"You know everything"
What? No I dont.
"Wait that didnt come out right. I mean like. Um Wow how do I put this. Your never surprised by anything. I need a man I can make say wow every once and a while"
I dont get surprised very often but I get surprised
"No you dont"
yeah I do I have just been though alot of shit
"Me too"
Well I was still surprised. Shit im surprised right now!
" Your not surprised haha your never surprised by anything"
Wait what? Im never surprised by anything? Im surprised by this whole situation!
"what situation?"
Was that a joke?
"No really what situation"
The whole thing with the thing and the paper and the sex and shit. Basically the entirety of today.
"You were surprised?"
WTF?No duh I was surprised! What kind of a normal person expects this type of shit?
"Ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha"
And that was my day.