a religious experience - not to be looked at as a confession of soul ha and a little more than a random thought.
Had quite a morbid fear of a 'heavy weight' pressing down on my chest from around age 16-25
Brother had become a minister during that period - non pushy fella it was just the way things happened
Was so distressed at the time with FEAR...not getting any sleep as thats when it occured etc, compounded by the fact i was in a 5 year shift work job
Anyway just happened to mention it to him, and he calmly suggested i had dabbled in seances etc, (TRUE) had exposed myself to outside forces and was being 'pressured'
ask forgivness, cleanse the soul , which i did do willingly ( as i had reached the motified stage ) and i would be cleansed
Once this was done, with maybe a dozen words.... brother calmly suggested, and i make it clear was stressed entirely MY choice... now that i was empty inside, did i want to fill it with Jesus...yes OK then so i asked the guy into my life....and it worked...for all of 6 months or so
Proof was in not being able to put that bible down
Not once did that 'weight' ever return.. i was intrigued amazed and of course felt 'a weight had been lifted' so to speak.
as an aside
This had all happened just after i had spent many many months searching the local library on books such as religion, philosophy meaning of life etc etc, this happening with an uneducated fella
Soon after i went overseas, thru Russia at the time took heaps and heaps of mini bibles, expecting to share them with the populace, of course a no no with the authorities..geuss that was my ultimate test of the faith, as i got as far as Japan only when it came to crossing by boat to the russian coast..gutless me disposed of the items in the trash in Japan .. hours before i boarded the Russian boat.
Had another fear of being confronted by burly russian KGB dudes Gulag haha etc etc
Did see many & many as it turned out
So had the spiritual vs the human huh?
Soooo i have always maintained, i have let the guy down, after the BIG favour? he had done for me.
Twice in actual fact but wont go into the 2nd episode ha
NO comnments solicited please, just wanted to get this experience out there..but if any forthcomming there will be no response...sorry.
PMs Ok if yr desperate ha
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THANKs fr the thread OP