unapproachable

[B_big dirigible]

But "heaving a marine engine out of the beach sand".... Where does one come up with imagery like this? I don't know.

Maybe on the beach?

I don't suppose I ever related the story of my attempt to wrestle an entire whale skull into a 13 foot Boston Whaler, did I? Big sucker, as big as the boat, and stank like a whole herd of goats in series. I've found the damndest stuff on the beach. Actually, the skull was a hundred yards off the beach, in maybe four feet of water.

A surprising number of complete cars are out there, too (on, not off). But the dead animal parts are the most interesting.

 

[novice_btm]

If it gives you power don't go. I had an Asian friend who sometimes came across to me like you do. He was Japanese.

Don't worry. He won't go. He promised he'd leave in three other threads before starting this one. He's trolling for the long-term.

For those that are confused what this is about, go to his profile, and click on the link to his previous post, and have at some reading, and at 26 posts per day of his verbose drivel, there's a lot to go through.

 

[JustAsking]

Maybe on the beach?

I don't suppose I ever related the story of my attempt to wrestle an entire whale skull into a 13 foot Boston Whaler, did I? Big sucker, as big as the boat, and stank like a whole herd of goats in series. I've found the damndest stuff on the beach. Actually, the skull was a hundred yards off the beach, in maybe four feet of water.

A surprising number of complete cars are out there, too (on, not off). But the dead animal parts are the most interesting.

Talk about imagery, all I can see now is a 13 foot Boston Whaler with a huge whale skull in it three time the size of the boat.

Ok, I gotsta know. What did you do with the whale skull?

 

[joyboytoy79]

Vesti - I don't dislike you.

In fact, you remind me very much of someone who almost let me fall in love with him once.

In my own way, i understand you.

Just, let me know when the crone sits on your chest and starts singing lullabies. That's when it's time to change your meds.

*hugs*

 

[68306]

(preparing statement)

 

[68306]

Good morning. It is evening here, but I have awoken from sleep.
A meal has been offered. Nice.

*rubs head, uncertain of his actions*
Again, for many, I will be hard to understand.
There may be some magic formula I am blatantly missing, but it is not something I currently control.
Though once an engineer of machines, I have gravitated towards a lost spirit. I do not expect scientific understanding on this.


I am well inside. My physical health is outstanding. (highly certain)
Others do not seem well. The task before me is daunting. I strain when I consider it. (fairly certain)
When I predict an event, I usually soon see the effects. Alas, I can rarely convey or stop the path of these events, nor do I know I cause them. (others have verified w/ certainty)
This community has been an outpost on my journey. (analogy)
I did not arrive to battle with any other than myself, other fights were not consciously planned. (fairly certain)
Regardless, I assumed unwanted attention would be drawn. This is something I wish to control. (highly certain)


There may reason behind the events here. (uncertainty)
Though the abuse barely registers, it has slowly touched upon feelings within. (highly certain)
Feel free to continue towards your true intent. (i am fine)
I shall now attempt to highlight my inconsistencies in your words. (trying)

 

[68306]

Vesti - I don't dislike you.

In fact, you remind me very much of someone who almost let me fall in love with him once.

In my own way, i understand you.

Just, let me know when the crone sits on your chest and starts singing lullabies. That's when it's time to change your meds.

*hugs*

Nor I you. There are others I do not like.., I struggle to accept them. I often succeed.

Thankyou. I have not yet read many of your posts, but I do read into what is presented. Any acceptance is great.

Hehe yeah. I dropped my meds because I was rapidly growing tolerant to the numbing emptyness, the required dosage was exceeding specifications. I accept the help of nature instead, though... I have ignored her lately.

*returns hug*

 

[68306]

Don't worry. He won't go. He promised he'd leave in three other threads before starting this one. He's trolling for the long-term.

For those that are confused what this is about, go to his profile, and click on the link to his previous post, and have at some reading, and at 26 posts per day of his verbose drivel, there's a lot to go through.

False.

Your hypocrisy displeases me.

I started this thread on the advice of another.

Those 26 posts per day are a tiny speck to me, of me. I would prefer to be ignored by those who cannot stand this ever shrinking aspect.

If I have been ordered to leave.., the directive did not reach me.

 

[68306]

Maybe on the beach?

I don't suppose I ever related the story of my attempt to wrestle an entire whale skull into a 13 foot Boston Whaler, did I? Big sucker, as big as the boat, and stank like a whole herd of goats in series. I've found the damndest stuff on the beach. Actually, the skull was a hundred yards off the beach, in maybe four feet of water.

A surprising number of complete cars are out there, too (on, not off). But the dead animal parts are the most interesting.

Small strip in Williamstown, across Maddox road, right of the main beach (when facing the ocean). You may witness it yourself. I intend to free it one day.

I have found many curiosities on the beach and in the ocean, some considered treasure... Does thine story lean towards memory or fiction?

 

[68306]

Perhaps Vestigial is just on lots of drugs.....

I apparently witnessed many drugs through pregnancy.
I have always stood against drugs.
I have taken medication in hospital, generally through surgury.
I have constantly turned down painkillers for many years, regardless of injury, regardless of how much others feel I should take them.
I was on medication. It numbed me. It weakened me. I struggled to protect myself, friends and family from harm.
I stopped taking medication the day Steve Irwin died. Nature has since protected me, amongst possible others.
I avoid drugs. My alchohol consumption is generally around a glass of fine wine every week. I have not drunk any for the past three weeks.
Life has recently shown me many other highs.

I do not know why I feel compelled to talk to you all. It may lead to my harm, since I am an abnormality. But I feel compelled to tell you, to tell you there is more to this life, in the spirit we ignore.

 

[68306]

lol. I don't think I ever read an entire post from him. Maybe it would be more productive to put this creative imagery into a song or something, than anonymous posts on a (large penis) message board

I guess I deviate from "common sense", only a few struggle with my trippy words... but sometimes they are quite clarified to all.

I freestyle musical compositions, often alone, sometimes for many hours on end. I have a cheap keyboard, an acoustic guitar, various small and damaged wind instruments, and a retired church organ elsewhere ~

These words are but a tiny, though alas somewhat addictive aspect of my pursuits.

 

[68306]

Ah, well... I share the concern that there may be a psychological condition possibly induced by too much time at a "console game" or inside obsessing, or from an abuse or non use of chemicals. Without more information all we can do is speculate. However, one thing I do absolutely believe is that whatever is going on with V is not going to be improved by others heaping abuse.

Yes, possibly too much time within myself. But what I found has been worth 24 years of dying.

The light abuse... may help me delve further inside of myself.


And there maybe some potent malice against me, that is impeding my development. Certainly, when I fall into a low ebb... I am attacked from many angles.


Again, you are not required to pay me any heed.

 

[68306]

If it gives you power don't go. I had an Asian friend who sometimes came across to me like you do. He was Japanese.

I do not require help here though. Only that the lives of others are falling apart, and I wish the strength to help them before they are ruined. I hoped the internet could speed my development, to a point where I could travel the world and intercept.

There are others who care about matters of the heart too... I may enter their reality in time. We shall see.


If you feel comfortable, tell me of your Japanese friend.

 

[68306]

Well he's from downunder. If you don't know who will. I thougth it was some marsupial milk poisoning or something.

But really JA is the grown up here and vestigial should listen to him.

Australia.

I grew, but I never grew up. I didn't have anything resembling a childhood. I rebelled against losing what I had, I didn't have much to lose.


This torn and bloodstained room is filled with both cute toys, advanced books, musical media, clothing and tools. A painting hangs on the wall, it is of an asian ship.

 

[kalipygian]

Vestigial, I have been daily making a point reading your posts since I first came across them, I think I have read all. I am impressed with your style. I do not see why anyone is justified in taking offense and getting rude.

You have a very origonal, creative, unique and poetic use of language. Maybe a jabberwocky anime by William Burroughs would be a parallel, though not a description.

I would encourage you to write short stories.

 

[68306]

Bingo for me, JustAsking.
I often feel that what one might take as Vestigial's insensitivity or even occasional cruelty is in some degree inadvertent and in some degree innocent because he doesn't feel his own gestures -- or he doesn't feel any particular thing more than any other.
There's a feeling of dissociation to me. Which might even contribute to the creativity to which you allude, JustAsking.
And I do get a sense (and forgive me, Vestigial, if this is too personal) that some medical attention might be in order.
I been there. Done that. Been helped.

I track ever deeper into things.., and try to treat all life as equal. But instead of showing people the next step of their path towards my reasoning, I feel I tell them of a destination they may never reach in their lifetime. I have my own journey too...

As for medical attention... I am a complicated work. What would a doctor say if they felt my heart thump away at 400 beats per minute? Most medical equipment isn't designed to monitor this. I am abnormal... maybe I have seen too many movies... but I fear for my safety.

I have been operated on, had parts of me cut away and stitched back together.., but, I healed differently... instead of being weakened, by body defied all odds, took it's own course, and thoroughly improved on it's original self.

There was a time I thought I would need to replace my knee joints (excessive training). My body recently repaired them on it's own accord... within minutes my knees have became the best I can remember, and I am now capable of continuously carrying loads heavier than my own body weight on them.

I help my body along too, with something akin to 'Reiki' healing. (an old jui-jitsu master tried it on me in the past)

 

[roosevelt]

An amusing read, though I find myself recalling an internship at a state hospital....

 

[68306]

Vestigial, I have been daily making a point reading your posts since I first came across them, I think I have read all. I am impressed with your style. I do not see why anyone is justified in taking offense and getting rude.

You have a very origonal, creative, unique and poetic use of language. Maybe a jabberwocky anime by William Burroughs would be a parallel, though not a description.

I would encourage you to write short stories.

I try to offer my advice... but it isn't appreciated by many. The problems people are having are often ones i've solved, even in others. My own problems however... well, I will attempt to meet others who feel they can correct them. Affirming my nature has freaked many people though.

On the subject of problems with large penises,
~ I was once a minute man. And it took me an entire day to recover before I could go again. My body was weak.
~ Recently I have held a hard erection for the entire day (~24 hours), using it for many hours during. I no longer have a refractory period (I do not lose my erection after ejaculation), though unchecked urination does cause me issues.
I have improved my abilities despite all those who said I couldn't. I do not see why anyone else lacks this ability to change.

...I am trying to see/understand.

I sometimes write short stories. I just haven't found many who can read most of them. I will show you them if you wish, some deviate into sickening black humor, some into pure serenity. Some are quite legible, but it depends on when I wrote them.

 

[68306]

An amusing read, though I find myself recalling an internship at a state hospital....

In what aspects? (I have spoken to others in the field too)

Not all that are locked away, are guilty.

 

[roosevelt]

I am not in the field of mental health, and if I where, I would hesitate to give even a rudimentary diagnosis over the internet.

I will not speculate, I will however ask; what has the diagnosis been in the past?