It was the night before my coffee with Matt. I had every expectation that this would be a simple, friendly and nice coffee with him. No footsie under the table, no "check please and back to mine", just a nice and pleasant coffee.

As such, I really, really, *really* didn't want to embarrass myself by being stupidly horny. I hadn't shot a load in a few days (the day before I got horny with the straight guy in the showers, in fact). If I turned up horny, I'd be stupidly flirtatious and that didn't need to happen.

I logged onto Grindr, in search of what we'll call a strategic shag. I checked my favourites and sure enough, the friend who I sucked off last week was online.

"Hey, how's it going?"

"Good thanks man, you okay?"

"Yeah alright thanks. I could really do with you dumping a load in me. Wanna pop over?"

"Sure! On my way".

His name is Anthony. He's one of those guys that is a friend with benefits, with the emphasis heavily on the benefits. We don't chat outside of Grindr, although we follow each other on Instagay, and if we see each other on a night out we'll have a friendly hug.

Nobody in our lives knows about what we get up to. We don't hide it, but we don't flaunt it either. It's a very functional friendship. You scratch my back, I'll shoot a load over yours.

He rang my bell and I buzzed him into the building. He came in, we exchanged some pleasantries while he took his shoes off.

"I was hoping to see you online, Tom! How come you're so riled up tonight?"

"It's been a little while since I shot a load and you know I love your cock."

"You know I love your arse".

He groaned and came with me to my bedroom. We kissed passionately as he pulled my jeans down to show my black CKs. He flipped me over and pushed me on to the bed.

Anthony really did love my arse. He started at my calves and worked his way up, kissing and licking every part of my legs. His hands wandered around my inner thigh, which got me so, so hot.

He massaged my arse over my CKs. Such a teasing man. Some playful slaps of my arse left me begging him to take my pants off.

I could feel the warm breath of his moan as he placed his mouth of my hole. He slapped me again and he knew that for the next few moments I was putty in his hands.

His head retreated a fraction as he surveyed my arse and legs in all their glory. I'm never gonna make the front page of Men's Health, but for a guy that likes strong thighs and arse with just a bit of hair on them, I'm their guy. He slapped my cheeks again and couldn't resist the urge much longer.

His tongue fell deep into my hole and I moaned loudly into my pillow.

"Oh fuck, Anthony. God I love it when you do that".

We really did have a nice chemistry. I doubt we'd ever had a meet that ever lasted more than half an hour, but we regularly met each other's needs and he was meeting mine wonderfully right now.

Anthony stood up and took his clothes off. I was about to turn over to get on my knees, but not this time.

"Don't move".

I closed my eyes, and the next moment his lubed finger was making its way to my hole. I was in heaven. He pounded me with his forefinger.

I love being rimmed and fingered. I still remember the first time a guy did it to me I was terrified (and he didn't even fuck me). Now, if a guy would play with my arse all night I'd let him, no matter who it was. Heck, I'd let that horny woman who tried to get Matt out of his delivery clothes the other day play with my arse if she was good with her tongue.

More lube, and Anthony nibbled gently on my ear.

"You ready?"

I weakly nodded into my pillow. He slowly eased his cock in.

"Oh my god, yes. Please fuck me".

Wow. I turn into a right needy bitch when I'm turned on. Quickly, Anthony was fucking me hard and deep. I can take a cock pretty well these days and his 7in dick was the perfect size: big enough to feel it, but not big enough to cause a problem.

He gave his arms a rest and lied down right on top of me. He pulled my arms above my head and held on to my hands while his cock slid in and out of me. I could feel his sweat drip down my back. His grunts felt so hot on my neck.

He moved back up on to his knees and fucked me at a 45° angle, slapping my arse a few more times doing so. He was playfully dominant with me in a way that friends with benefits could be: effortlessly comfortable, relaxed and horny.

"Turn over".

He flipped me around, a touch more lube on his cock and he was straight back in. I moaned loudly - I found cock in missionary that bit more challenging - but he (rightly) took this as permission to fuck me harder. He had his eyes closed as he pounded my hole. Who was he thinking of? Who was his Matt?

I was firmly hard at this point and my cock flailed around as he fucked me. My pre-cum leaked out all over my stomach with every thrust.

"Wow, that's a lot of precum".

He momentarily stopped, lapped it up with his fingers and drenched my tongue with my own precum. He lent in and kissed me.

"Tom, this feels amazing".

"It does. I'm struggling to hold my load in much longer".

That was enough to make Anthony groan and want to shoot. I generally like to see someone else come first. I like to see their faces: that mix of agony and ecstasy that is never replicated in any other action, and use that to spur me on.

But as Anthony pounded me harder and harder, still with his eyes shut I too shut mine and Matt suddenly appeared in my vision. It was he that was pounding me now, thrusting and looking deep into my eyes. I could see him, smell him, feel him. He smiled at me as he fucked me, knowing that we were locked as one and I was entirely his.

Thinking about Matt in that way took me over the edge and I was now uncontrollably shaking as I involuntarily shot my load all over me. Spurt after spurt flew out, some reaching my neck, most landing everywhere in the vicinity.

My arse clenched as I came, which was enough to take Anthony over the edge with me. I opened my eyes to see his face redden and he was about to shoot.

"Oh my fucking Godddd that's hot". He shot a hot load right up my arse, falling over me as he did so. He kissed me on the cheek, then licked up as much cum as he could find. Slut.

He gently eased his dick out.

"Wow. God, that was nice."

"It was. Thanks for having me round."

"Anytime mate."

From here, we followed the same routine we'd done a few times before. We jumped in the shower together and washed each other clean of our filth. Anthony occasionally even had his own towel, if he was around that often. Sometimes, it was 2 or 3 times a week if we were in the mood.

He dried off and started to put his clothes on.

"You've never shot a load before like that. Usually you wait for me or I wank/blow you off. You really are fucking horny tonight aren't you?"

"Ha - I guess so. I just felt it".

I felt something, and it was indescribable. Anthony left and I went to bed, thinking about how much Matt jolted me and turned me on. And yet, I was genuinely just looking forward to coffee with him tomorrow and hearing his stories.

I fell asleep within seconds of my head hitting the pillow.
 
I had an experience with a deliver guy too some years ago in Mexico. It was real. I was at home jerking off in the morning, I was using a cockring. The doorbell rang and of course that pissed me off but a took a look from the window and it was a young deliver guy. I wasn't waiting any package but he waited some minutes and knocked on the door this time. The idea of open the door with my big hard on made me still harder. It was impossible to take off the cockring at that moment, my cock was hard as rock. I steeled myself and finally opened the door. My neighboor wasn't at his home so this guy asked me if he could deliver his package to me. He couldn't stop watching my cock throbbing. That was only for some seconds and the he left. Hot experience.
 
The day arrived. Some actual planned and wanted time with Matt, rather than a series of chance encounters.

I woke up feeling well rested and refreshed. I usually woke up feeling good after a nice fuck, and last night had been really nice.

I had my morning coffee, caught up on the news, and chatted to some friends. It was a nice lazy weekend morning.

I stayed casual. A plain white t-shirt, some tight blue jeans and trainers. Regular trunk underwear. No jocks, no revealing vests, no short shorts. Casual. Calm. Relaxed. At least in appearance...

I got there a few minutes early - us gays need to keep up our punctual reputations - but Matt was already there! Keen.

He had gone for the same casual look - t-shirt, jeans and trainers - but he pulled it off so much better than me. He wasn't insanely fit, like those guys that almost spend too much time on their body. No, he just gave you enough hints that underneath his clothes was a hot body of a hot guy. Maybe he was wearing a jock, I wondered as my eyes drifted down his body...

"Hey!"

He saw me, stood up and initiated a warm hug. He really did just wrap around me in a snug fit that made you feel safe. And horny. Safely horny.

"Hey Matt, nice to see you. How's your day going?"

"Really nice. I was delivering this morning."

"Anymore half naked horny girls?"

"Hahahaha thankfully not. It was *so* awkward. She looked offended, like she's not used to guys saying no. I think she thought I thought I was too hot for her."

"Maybe you were?"

"No! It's just not my style."

"Maybe some other delivery guy was lucky when he dropped off a package to her! Now, what would you like to drink?"

"You don't need to do that".

"Yes, I do. Because then you owe me, and your pride will make you stay for another".

I got us two coffees and sat back down. We enjoyed quite idle chat for a few minutes, about deliveries and weather. Matt had worked solely in the removals trade, first with his Dad and now solo when he retired, but COVID had dropped that line of work and he mixed it with deliveries.

All nice and simple so far. I think we were both maybe looking for a route into something more personal and relevant.

Matt went for that sort of question first.

"Do you mind if I ask you questions about your personal life?"

"No, go for it. I'm open with people I respect and trust".

"Do you respect and trust me?"

"Of course I do".

"Ha. Suuuccckker". He said, playfully.

(God, if you only knew).

He continued. "My mate was a dick to you the other day. Is that common? How often do you get shit like that?"

"Nowadays, not so often. I've friends who grew up in the 70s and 80s. They had it bad. They used to get beaten up semi-regularly, and always just shouted at in the street. I don't get that nowadays much. The occasional comment, somebody threatened to punch me once for being a faggot, but I felt confident enough that he was all talk. He quickly backed off and walked away, shouting shit at me instead".

"I'm so sorry you need to do that, Tom". He looked genuinely hurt.

"It's okay. I mean, it's not, but I'm comfortable. I can live my life. I can hold hands with who I want, I can kiss who I want, I can fuck who I want, and I can flaunt around town with a rainbow flag. Life's fine".

"Haha, well here's to people flaunting and fucking who they like".

We clinked our coffee cups, smiling.

"And do you? Fuck and flaunt?"

"Yes. Well, sometimes. I'm quite relaxed about sex and sexuality. I don't think it's betrayal to find different people attractive and interesting. I don't know that I flaunt it much though".

He smiled, understanding me.

"Do you mind that I'm like that?"

"No! God no. No judgement from me, and I'm interested to be honest."

"Thank you. Can I ask you a personal question in return?"

"Sure".

"Do you like to flaunt and fuck? I'm assuming that you're straight?"

He nodded.

"And yet you had a sexy woman offering herself to you this week, and you walked away?"

He took a deep breath, looking down at his mug. He looked quite pensive, almost as if he was struggling to answer. I quickly jumped in.

"You don't need to answer that if you don't want to".

"No, it's okay. I just don't talk about this stuff much. For some reason, I trust and respect you too". He smiled that cheeky smile again.

"I've never really done the whole sleeping around thing. It's not my style. All my mates do, well most of them try to anyway. Not all of them succeed."

"All of them would have fucked that woman yesterday given half a chance. I just always preferred getting to know somebody properly first and respecting those boundaries."

"I fell in love quite early. I was 19. I was at a pub quiz with some mates and one of them brought a friend along."

He was instantly smiling in that way that revealed love.

"She sat next to me. Emma. She was gorgeous. She touched my shoulder as she introduced herself and I just fell weak at the knees. You know that feeling: how am I in the same room as somebody so beautiful?"

I smiled and nodded knowingly.

"We just had a wonderful time all night. We did shit in the quiz! I don't think my mates were too happy that I was distracting this woman who probably knew quite a lot of the answers. But we didn't really care."

"She gave me her number at the end of the night and it took all my effort not to message her as soon as she left".

"We just clicked instantly and within a few weeks we'd gone on holiday together and it was just excellent".

"How old was she?" I asked.

"She was 20".

"A few months later, we'd moved in. I was still at home with my parents working for my Dad's removals firm. He's retired now and I've got the business. So yeah, my first time living with someone and it was her. And we never looked back really. Waking up next to her every morning was just wonderful mate. I know I sound soppy but it was just like a dream".

I smiled.

"I proposed to her the following summer. We went on holiday to a resort in Greece. The sun was setting and we were looking out over the sea. She said yes!"

"Of course she did. Who wouldn't?!"

"Ha. Thanks. We got married when I was 22 and she was 23".

He showed me a photo from their wedding day. They were a gorgeous couple.

"That's amazing. And young! How old are you now?"

"I'm 26".

Matt wasn't wearing a wedding ring, and I don't think I'd seen him wearing one at any point.

I didn't know exactly how this story would end, but I knew not happily.

"We were out one day and she very quickly just felt unwell. Awful headache, sick etc. We got home and she took painkillers and eventually she was okay, but it was something different to anything she'd had before".

"A week later, the same again but this time worse. She couldn't see straight or look anywhere without feeling dizzy".

"I got her to a GP the next day and he was quite worried by how quickly symptoms were developing and arranged a scan. Within a couple of days, she'd had a seizure and was rushed to A&E".

"She died of a brain tumour three months later".

I stayed silent and just looked at him. His expression was weary, like a man who'd told this story too many times, played it through his mind too many times, lived it too many times.

"Matt, I'm so sorry. And I'm sorry for making light of the encounter with that woman yesterday".

He smiled.

"Hey, that's fine. I'm just sorry for bringing the mood down from fucking and flaunting! There's no easy way to tell it."

"When did she die?"

"Two years ago. Just before the pandemic started".

"And... I don't know what to ask. I have questions but... do you want to discuss this?"

"Yes. And no. Then yes. Ha. It's hard. Can I be honest with you?"

"Of course". I replied.

"My mates were as good as they can. We spent the pandemic playing video games online. I moved in with my brother, his wife and my niece, so I had company during lockdown. It was fine."

"But... none of them are that great when it comes to emotional stuff. And I don't think I am either. So I've sort of just built up a lot of stuff that I'm still making sense of it."

He continued: "You can obviously tell me to fuck off, but I got a sense that you're a good guy, and quite different to a lot of my friends".

"You mean, I'm a slutty queer?" I smiled.

"Haha. Oh fuck. No. I don't know how to explain it. Just... nice. And understanding. I just got a vibe from you that we clicked and would get on".

"Thank you. I felt the same". I said.

"So I'm not here to just use you as a therapist or anything. If it feels like that, I'm sorry. We can end this now if you like".

"Of course not". I reached out and touched his arm. He held it with his hand momentarily, and I retreated to my coffee.

"But I just got a sense that we'd get on, and occasionally I might talk to you a bit more personally than I would with my mates. If that's okay".

I smiled, nodding.

"Alright. Good. Another coffee?"

I smiled again, nodded again. He went to bar, returning a few minutes later with two coffees and some cake.

"If I'm gonna burden you with dead wife stories, the least I can do is buy you cake".

"Thanks. Can I ask another personal question? You're clearly not ready to shag a woman who wants something quick when you deliver a parcel. But... what are you ready for? How do you feel about..."

I was loathe to use the words, but Matt agreed it was the most accurate.

"... moving on"?

"I guess, yeah. How do you feel about feeling something for somebody else?"

"I don't know, honestly. Usually I'm thinking about it in the hypothetical, guessing how I'll feel in a moment that never happens. That woman this week, that was just never me anyway."

He paused, then continued.

"I hope you don't think this too weird, but the first time I did feel something like this was meeting you. And I don't mean anything physical by that".

"You can mean anything physical you like with me, Matt". I joked.

He smiled.

"I felt a warmth to you, as if I'd be comfortable being vulnerable around you. I've not really been vulnerable around anybody since Emma. Even with my brother, I've put on a brave face rather than open up."

"With you, I just had a feeling that I didn't need to worry about where a conversation would go. Sorry, I'm talking shit here".

"It's alright, Matt. I've wondered about what sort of guy you are. At times, I've probably unfairly given you the lad about town stereotype, and then I've been surprised you've been so nice to me. I can't imagine what you've gone through in the last couple of years. I feel a warmth towards you too. I won't lie that the first time I met you, that was in a "fuck me, you're hot" kind of way".

He laughed, shyly.

"But more generally I've just found you somebody I like thinking about and I feel happy seeing you. So if you do feel comfortable opening up around me, I will do whatever I can to help. I don't know what that looks like in practice".

"Me neither", Matt replied. "It might just be hanging out and seeing where conversation takes us."

"I'd like that. I don't mean this jokingly, but I guess I don't mean it super seriously either... are you comfortable being vulnerable around me, a gay guy who happens to think you stunningly beautiful?"

"You think me stunningly beautiful?"

"Ha. I think you're a gorgeous, gorgeous man. I guess the difference between me and the delivery woman is that I respect the rest of you too".

He went a bit red, but with the very quiet confidence of a man who had been told this before.

"Thanks Tom. No, I don't care one bit about your sexuality, except that I respect it. Part of me maybe feels more comfortable, truth be told. I like that you felt you could touch my arm before. I like that it can just be relaxed without necessarily having to mean anything."

"I think this conversation is probably a fair indication that we're comfortable around each other". I suggested.

He smiled. From there, our conversation drifted through a few other pleasantries and details. We agreed that we would hang out sometime soon.

We got up to say our goodbyes, and we had a warm embrace. Matt held the hug for longer than I'd have expected. Today had shown a greater warmth and commitment to each other than I ever might have expected.

"Thank you, Tom. I don't know why, but I feel a bit of a weight off my mind."

We went our separate ways, and I walked home reflecting on how I felt about him. When he'd left my sight previously, I'd had erections, felt lust, intrigue... and now, I just realised I'd met an extraordinarily resilient man who had decided to put some trust in me.

To think I'd felt the need to have sex just to suppress my horn, when this guy had probably spent last night wondering how to tell me about the love of his life and how he misses her.

And yet he wanted to. He felt something for me that he'd not felt for close people in his life. It was nearly enough to bring me to tears.
 
More please, I didn’t sleep for days waiting for this haha
The day arrived. Some actual planned and wanted time with Matt, rather than a series of chance encounters.

I woke up feeling well rested and refreshed. I usually woke up feeling good after a nice fuck, and last night had been really nice.

I had my morning coffee, caught up on the news, and chatted to some friends. It was a nice lazy weekend morning.

I stayed casual. A plain white t-shirt, some tight blue jeans and trainers. Regular trunk underwear. No jocks, no revealing vests, no short shorts. Casual. Calm. Relaxed. At least in appearance...

I got there a few minutes early - us gays need to keep up our punctual reputations - but Matt was already there! Keen.

He had gone for the same casual look - t-shirt, jeans and trainers - but he pulled it off so much better than me. He wasn't insanely fit, like those guys that almost spend too much time on their body. No, he just gave you enough hints that underneath his clothes was a hot body of a hot guy. Maybe he was wearing a jock, I wondered as my eyes drifted down his body...

"Hey!"

He saw me, stood up and initiated a warm hug. He really did just wrap around me in a snug fit that made you feel safe. And horny. Safely horny.

"Hey Matt, nice to see you. How's your day going?"

"Really nice. I was delivering this morning."

"Anymore half naked horny girls?"

"Hahahaha thankfully not. It was *so* awkward. She looked offended, like she's not used to guys saying no. I think she thought I thought I was too hot for her."

"Maybe you were?"

"No! It's just not my style."

"Maybe some other delivery guy was lucky when he dropped off a package to her! Now, what would you like to drink?"

"You don't need to do that".

"Yes, I do. Because then you owe me, and your pride will make you stay for another".

I got us two coffees and sat back down. We enjoyed quite idle chat for a few minutes, about deliveries and weather. Matt had worked solely in the removals trade, first with his Dad and now solo when he retired, but COVID had dropped that line of work and he mixed it with deliveries.

All nice and simple so far. I think we were both maybe looking for a route into something more personal and relevant.

Matt went for that sort of question first.

"Do you mind if I ask you questions about your personal life?"

"No, go for it. I'm open with people I respect and trust".

"Do you respect and trust me?"

"Of course I do".

"Ha. Suuuccckker". He said, playfully.

(God, if you only knew).

He continued. "My mate was a dick to you the other day. Is that common? How often do you get shit like that?"

"Nowadays, not so often. I've friends who grew up in the 70s and 80s. They had it bad. They used to get beaten up semi-regularly, and always just shouted at in the street. I don't get that nowadays much. The occasional comment, somebody threatened to punch me once for being a faggot, but I felt confident enough that he was all talk. He quickly backed off and walked away, shouting shit at me instead".

"I'm so sorry you need to do that, Tom". He looked genuinely hurt.

"It's okay. I mean, it's not, but I'm comfortable. I can live my life. I can hold hands with who I want, I can kiss who I want, I can fuck who I want, and I can flaunt around town with a rainbow flag. Life's fine".

"Haha, well here's to people flaunting and fucking who they like".

We clinked our coffee cups, smiling.

"And do you? Fuck and flaunt?"

"Yes. Well, sometimes. I'm quite relaxed about sex and sexuality. I don't think it's betrayal to find different people attractive and interesting. I don't know that I flaunt it much though".

He smiled, understanding me.

"Do you mind that I'm like that?"

"No! God no. No judgement from me, and I'm interested to be honest."

"Thank you. Can I ask you a personal question in return?"

"Sure".

"Do you like to flaunt and fuck? I'm assuming that you're straight?"

He nodded.

"And yet you had a sexy woman offering herself to you this week, and you walked away?"

He took a deep breath, looking down at his mug. He looked quite pensive, almost as if he was struggling to answer. I quickly jumped in.

"You don't need to answer that if you don't want to".

"No, it's okay. I just don't talk about this stuff much. For some reason, I trust and respect you too". He smiled that cheeky smile again.

"I've never really done the whole sleeping around thing. It's not my style. All my mates do, well most of them try to anyway. Not all of them succeed."

"All of them would have fucked that woman yesterday given half a chance. I just always preferred getting to know somebody properly first and respecting those boundaries."

"I fell in love quite early. I was 19. I was at a pub quiz with some mates and one of them brought a friend along."

He was instantly smiling in that way that revealed love.

"She sat next to me. Emma. She was gorgeous. She touched my shoulder as she introduced herself and I just fell weak at the knees. You know that feeling: how am I in the same room as somebody so beautiful?"

I smiled and nodded knowingly.

"We just had a wonderful time all night. We did shit in the quiz! I don't think my mates were too happy that I was distracting this woman who probably knew quite a lot of the answers. But we didn't really care."

"She gave me her number at the end of the night and it took all my effort not to message her as soon as she left".

"We just clicked instantly and within a few weeks we'd gone on holiday together and it was just excellent".

"How old was she?" I asked.

"She was 20".

"A few months later, we'd moved in. I was still at home with my parents working for my Dad's removals firm. He's retired now and I've got the business. So yeah, my first time living with someone and it was her. And we never looked back really. Waking up next to her every morning was just wonderful mate. I know I sound soppy but it was just like a dream".

I smiled.

"I proposed to her the following summer. We went on holiday to a resort in Greece. The sun was setting and we were looking out over the sea. She said yes!"

"Of course she did. Who wouldn't?!"

"Ha. Thanks. We got married when I was 22 and she was 23".

He showed me a photo from their wedding day. They were a gorgeous couple.

"That's amazing. And young! How old are you now?"

"I'm 26".

Matt wasn't wearing a wedding ring, and I don't think I'd seen him wearing one at any point.

I didn't know exactly how this story would end, but I knew not happily.

"We were out one day and she very quickly just felt unwell. Awful headache, sick etc. We got home and she took painkillers and eventually she was okay, but it was something different to anything she'd had before".

"A week later, the same again but this time worse. She couldn't see straight or look anywhere without feeling dizzy".

"I got her to a GP the next day and he was quite worried by how quickly symptoms were developing and arranged a scan. Within a couple of days, she'd had a seizure and was rushed to A&E".

"She died of a brain tumour three months later".

I stayed silent and just looked at him. His expression was weary, like a man who'd told this story too many times, played it through his mind too many times, lived it too many times.

"Matt, I'm so sorry. And I'm sorry for making light of the encounter with that woman yesterday".

He smiled.

"Hey, that's fine. I'm just sorry for bringing the mood down from fucking and flaunting! There's no easy way to tell it."

"When did she die?"

"Two years ago. Just before the pandemic started".

"And... I don't know what to ask. I have questions but... do you want to discuss this?"

"Yes. And no. Then yes. Ha. It's hard. Can I be honest with you?"

"Of course". I replied.

"My mates were as good as they can. We spent the pandemic playing video games online. I moved in with my brother, his wife and my niece, so I had company during lockdown. It was fine."

"But... none of them are that great when it comes to emotional stuff. And I don't think I am either. So I've sort of just built up a lot of stuff that I'm still making sense of it."

He continued: "You can obviously tell me to fuck off, but I got a sense that you're a good guy, and quite different to a lot of my friends".

"You mean, I'm a slutty queer?" I smiled.

"Haha. Oh fuck. No. I don't know how to explain it. Just... nice. And understanding. I just got a vibe from you that we clicked and would get on".

"Thank you. I felt the same". I said.

"So I'm not here to just use you as a therapist or anything. If it feels like that, I'm sorry. We can end this now if you like".

"Of course not". I reached out and touched his arm. He held it with his hand momentarily, and I retreated to my coffee.

"But I just got a sense that we'd get on, and occasionally I might talk to you a bit more personally than I would with my mates. If that's okay".

I smiled, nodding.

"Alright. Good. Another coffee?"

I smiled again, nodded again. He went to bar, returning a few minutes later with two coffees and some cake.

"If I'm gonna burden you with dead wife stories, the least I can do is buy you cake".

"Thanks. Can I ask another personal question? You're clearly not ready to shag a woman who wants something quick when you deliver a parcel. But... what are you ready for? How do you feel about..."

I was loathe to use the words, but Matt agreed it was the most accurate.

"... moving on"?

"I guess, yeah. How do you feel about feeling something for somebody else?"

"I don't know, honestly. Usually I'm thinking about it in the hypothetical, guessing how I'll feel in a moment that never happens. That woman this week, that was just never me anyway."

He paused, then continued.

"I hope you don't think this too weird, but the first time I did feel something like this was meeting you. And I don't mean anything physical by that".

"You can mean anything physical you like with me, Matt". I joked.

He smiled.

"I felt a warmth to you, as if I'd be comfortable being vulnerable around you. I've not really been vulnerable around anybody since Emma. Even with my brother, I've put on a brave face rather than open up."

"With you, I just had a feeling that I didn't need to worry about where a conversation would go. Sorry, I'm talking shit here".

"It's alright, Matt. I've wondered about what sort of guy you are. At times, I've probably unfairly given you the lad about town stereotype, and then I've been surprised you've been so nice to me. I can't imagine what you've gone through in the last couple of years. I feel a warmth towards you too. I won't lie that the first time I met you, that was in a "fuck me, you're hot" kind of way".

He laughed, shyly.

"But more generally I've just found you somebody I like thinking about and I feel happy seeing you. So if you do feel comfortable opening up around me, I will do whatever I can to help. I don't know what that looks like in practice".

"Me neither", Matt replied. "It might just be hanging out and seeing where conversation takes us."

"I'd like that. I don't mean this jokingly, but I guess I don't mean it super seriously either... are you comfortable being vulnerable around me, a gay guy who happens to think you stunningly beautiful?"

"You think me stunningly beautiful?"

"Ha. I think you're a gorgeous, gorgeous man. I guess the difference between me and the delivery woman is that I respect the rest of you too".

He went a bit red, but with the very quiet confidence of a man who had been told this before.

"Thanks Tom. No, I don't care one bit about your sexuality, except that I respect it. Part of me maybe feels more comfortable, truth be told. I like that you felt you could touch my arm before. I like that it can just be relaxed without necessarily having to mean anything."

"I think this conversation is probably a fair indication that we're comfortable around each other". I suggested.

He smiled. From there, our conversation drifted through a few other pleasantries and details. We agreed that we would hang out sometime soon.

We got up to say our goodbyes, and we had a warm embrace. Matt held the hug for longer than I'd have expected. Today had shown a greater warmth and commitment to each other than I ever might have expected.

"Thank you, Tom. I don't know why, but I feel a bit of a weight off my mind."

We went our separate ways, and I walked home reflecting on how I felt about him. When he'd left my sight previously, I'd had erections, felt lust, intrigue... and now, I just realised I'd met an extraordinarily resilient man who had decided to put some trust in me.

To think I'd felt the need to have sex just to suppress my horn, when this guy had probably spent last night wondering how to tell me about the love of his life and how he misses her.

And yet he wanted to. He felt something for me that he'd not felt for close people in his life. It was nearly enough to bring me to tears.
 
Chill. It takes time to write stuff down and you don't know the personal stuff going on in OP's life. Just be patient man.
All good :) I took their reply in the complimentary way it was intended.

The story is starting to take on a bit of a bigger beast than I'd expected when I first wrote about the hot guy that needed some water in Part 1! There'll be updates as and when I've got the time to think them through.
 
All good :) I took their reply in the complimentary way it was intended.

The story is starting to take on a bit of a bigger beast than I'd expected when I first wrote about the hot guy that needed some water in Part 1! There'll be updates as and when I've got the time to think them through.
@fmman I feel you. When i wrote Patrick and Cole, it takes a lot out of you, to keep people happy. When i wrote Nick and his famous Best Friend, model Corey, i just started a new job and had no time to write it. I just ended up ending it very quickly, never gave it as much love as Patrick and Cole series.
 
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@fmman I feel you. When i wrote Patrick and Cole, it takes a lot out of you, to keep people happy. When i wrote Nick and his famous Best Friend, model Corey, i just started a new job and had no time to write it. I just ended up ending it very quickly, never gave it as much love as Patrick and Cole series.
I remember how obsessed I was with Patrick and Cole. A story that is worth recommending. And now I am obsessed with this delivery guy story. Haha.
 
I woke up quite early the next day. I'd slept pretty well, although a few thoughts had been swirling around my mind about Matt.

We had had very different lives for people who were about the same age. He had grown up in the same city he now lived in. He'd been earmarked for the family business, which he'd put his life into building up for his own family, then COVID messed up the business part, and cruel circumstance messed up the family part.

I'd grown up somewhere else, moved here for university and stayed. He'd married his teenage sweetheart, I'd slept around and enjoyed the liberties that came with that.

And yet, these differences played their part in our connection. He felt like he could open up and confide in me without me judging him or without much consequence. For me, I had so much respect for him. So much of his life is wonderful and yet constricted, and then he has had to deal with so much shit, yet come through it with an outlook that is kind and warm.

I'm not so honourable to admit that his sweet peachy arse and jawline are an added bonus...

As I started to get excited in my pants... a text arrived from the jawline in question.

"Hey Tom. Thanks again for yesterday. I hope I didn't scare you off."

I text him back quickly.

"Hey, who dis? I got you saved in my phone as "Fuck and Flaunt"."

"Hahahaha"

"Ha. Hey Matt. You didn't scare me off at all. Honestly, I was a little tearful at how you felt about opening up to me."

"Oh mate, I cried quite a bit last night. I don't know exactly what I was crying about tbh".

"Probably just a weight off your mind?"

"Yeah I guess. These last two years, family and mates keep asking me how I am, how I'm holding up and I just don't have a good answer. They mean well but I think they're waiting for me to have some perfect explanation of grief. And I don't have that. With you, I can just chat shit and it's nice".

"Well, thank you. What are you up to today?"

"I'm babysitting my niece. I still live with my brother's family. How about you?"

"That's cool that you do that for your brother. I'm just chilling. I might see a mate later or browse Grindr and meet someone. If it bores you a bit me saying stuff like that, I don't need to discuss it".

"Don't worry mate - you don't need to hear about my niece watching shit on TV but I'm telling you haha. Will you meet somebody you know, or a stranger?"

"Depends - I usually don't meet anybody. Some people are flaky or just having a nice chat. But maybe I'll meet someone. let's see."

"#fuckandflaunt"

"Hahaha"

"Would you fancy hanging out one night this week? We could just watch a film or something? I'd have to come to you, if that's okay".

"I'd like that mate. I'll cook or get some food in. Obviously, as a gay we have to either watch a shit rom com or gay porn."

"Hahahaha. I'm in your hands mate".

We agreed a day and time.

"I just wanna say Matt: I'm not expecting every time you meet me that you open yourself up and we have deep conversation. No pressure or stress from me".

"Thanks Tom. I'm genuinely just looking forward to a movie and chilling out. All good."

"Okay great. Looking forward to it x"

I slacked off browsing Grindr, and just had a nice feel of my cock while thinking about Matt.

I've had worse mornings.
 
I woke up quite early the next day. I'd slept pretty well, although a few thoughts had been swirling around my mind about Matt.

We had had very different lives for people who were about the same age. He had grown up in the same city he now lived in. He'd been earmarked for the family business, which he'd put his life into building up for his own family, then COVID messed up the business part, and cruel circumstance messed up the family part.

I'd grown up somewhere else, moved here for university and stayed. He'd married his teenage sweetheart, I'd slept around and enjoyed the liberties that came with that.

And yet, these differences played their part in our connection. He felt like he could open up and confide in me without me judging him or without much consequence. For me, I had so much respect for him. So much of his life is wonderful and yet constricted, and then he has had to deal with so much shit, yet come through it with an outlook that is kind and warm.

I'm not so honourable to admit that his sweet peachy arse and jawline are an added bonus...

As I started to get excited in my pants... a text arrived from the jawline in question.

"Hey Tom. Thanks again for yesterday. I hope I didn't scare you off."

I text him back quickly.

"Hey, who dis? I got you saved in my phone as "Fuck and Flaunt"."

"Hahahaha"

"Ha. Hey Matt. You didn't scare me off at all. Honestly, I was a little tearful at how you felt about opening up to me."

"Oh mate, I cried quite a bit last night. I don't know exactly what I was crying about tbh".

"Probably just a weight off your mind?"

"Yeah I guess. These last two years, family and mates keep asking me how I am, how I'm holding up and I just don't have a good answer. They mean well but I think they're waiting for me to have some perfect explanation of grief. And I don't have that. With you, I can just chat shit and it's nice".

"Well, thank you. What are you up to today?"

"I'm babysitting my niece. I still live with my brother's family. How about you?"

"That's cool that you do that for your brother. I'm just chilling. I might see a mate later or browse Grindr and meet someone. If it bores you a bit me saying stuff like that, I don't need to discuss it".

"Don't worry mate - you don't need to hear about my niece watching shit on TV but I'm telling you haha. Will you meet somebody you know, or a stranger?"

"Depends - I usually don't meet anybody. Some people are flaky or just having a nice chat. But maybe I'll meet someone. let's see."

"#fuckandflaunt"

"Hahaha"

"Would you fancy hanging out one night this week? We could just watch a film or something? I'd have to come to you, if that's okay".

"I'd like that mate. I'll cook or get some food in. Obviously, as a gay we have to either watch a shit rom com or gay porn."

"Hahahaha. I'm in your hands mate".

We agreed a day and time.

"I just wanna say Matt: I'm not expecting every time you meet me that you open yourself up and we have deep conversation. No pressure or stress from me".

"Thanks Tom. I'm genuinely just looking forward to a movie and chilling out. All good."

"Okay great. Looking forward to it x"

I slacked off browsing Grindr, and just had a nice feel of my cock while thinking about Matt.

I've had worse mornings.
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