Confused, AZ: Hi guys! Long time reader, first time poster! It's great how we can talk about this subject on the internet, it's so hard to get these discussions about huge 'monster' cocks happening in real life, it's something my mother finds uncomfortable to talk about. It makes me feel like I could be adopted. Sometimes I try to research this idea by 'accidentally' walking in on my father in the shower to see if he has the same 'dimensions' as me, but I'm running out of excuses to open the shower curtain without announcing my presence first. My problem is complicated. Many people wouldn't complain about my situation. I measure 11.5 inches with a thick girth, but still I want. Though large, it looks so lame, in its pinkish hue. The more movies I watch on large black men enjoying their leisure time, the more I want one of that color. Somehow it seems to add another couple of inches? Look, I'm as straight as a die, but I'd have to admit I've consciously made black friends as an excuse to examine them privately, in awe. One question I have is: is it worth my while to 'accidentallly' brush 'it' with my hand? Do black guys 'feel' any different?, or are they the same as us normal folk? I'd hate to waste a friendship with an awkward grab at his crotch if I didn't have a legitimate reason.