You were right - he's not interested, just an introvert. I get so infatuated, it's ridiculous... However, it's fine - I was all of a sudden less attracted to him.
But recently, I saw this super handsome guy (preppy and straight looking) at a party. and we got eye contact as I was staring at him. When we talked however, it got clear to me that he was straight, and I'm heartbroken.
Life is so difficult - love is never reciprocated. I guess I don't accept my ranking on the "biological" looks department, as I don't fancy the ones who fancy me. And the ones I fancy are unattainable
Difficult to accept