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I have to come clean about something. My ex girlfriend is the first woman that I ever had a sexual relationship with. I have had sex with women before her, but they were all unsatisfying one night stands or prostitutes. Also, except for two occaisions intercourse was never involved in my other...
I have low self esteem, am usually at least a little bit depressed and suffer from suicide ideation. These are my three big mental issues and all three have been pretty bad recently. I've been feeling down everyday and have had very elaborate suicide fantasies for the past few weeks. Recently it...
I decided to go home for Christmas this year. I spent time with family, did a lot of shopping and had a great time. But, I am very happy to be leaving the USA and don't plan on going back.
I spent about ten days in the US and these past few days have just driven home the fact that the American...
*WARNING* This is an incoherent and borderline nonsensical ramble about getting back together with my ex and my basic dating preferences. Read at your own risk. *WARNING*
Recently I've been thinking of getting back together with my ex.
I know I said that I was giving up relationships, and I...
Like I wrote in my previous blog post, I'm giving up on relationships. Now, at the time I wasn't sure how that would affect my sex life. I had thought that maybe I would just buy prostitutes, but now I've decided to just give up on sex.
The reason for this is that I just can't get over the...
In my opinion, it's very important to realize and understand your limitations. I've come to the conclusion that I'm really not well suited for romantic relationships. I have too many issues with sex and intimacy to connect with someone on that level. So I've decided that instead of wasting my...
I hate exercise. It's horrible. I get sweaty and tired and it's boring as all hell. I really do hate it. But, for the sake of changing my daily routine and maybe finally losing my disgusting belly fat, I've taken up jogging.
On the jogging front, things have gone pretty well. To be honest, it...
There's always distance in my relationships. Sometimes it;s physical other times it's emotional, but there is always distance. There is always some gulf that separates me and the woman I'm with.
In this way, my romantic relationships mimic my friendships and other relations. My close friends...
I just got off the phone with my ex-girlfriend.
I actually have a few former girlfriends, but only one who I truly consider my "ex-girlfriend." This is a woman I dated for years and was my first love. Just hearing her voice brought back so many feeling and emotions, especially since I'm not...
I looked in the mirror today. I usually hate looking in the mirror, but today I did and I wasn't exactly happy with what I saw, but I wasn't repulsed.
I am too fat, and my dick isn't as big as I would like, but today when I looked in the mirror I felt okay about myself.
I am usually pretty...
So after about a week away from this site, I have decided to once again to grace you with my presence.
Now let the emo rant commence!
So I have a girlfriend, but as my friends are quick to tell me, we aren't a real couple. There's no real affection and there's just a general coldness. I think...
I'm not in a good place emotionally right now.
Sorry for writing so much weird shit.
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Like I wrote in a previous post, my girlfriend broke up with me a couple of weeks back. She didn't really give a reason, just that she needed to be on her own. Well, to make a long story short we're back together.
What happened is that, a few weeks after she decided to end our relationship...
So I got an email from my ex. Where she explained her reasons for doing what she did.
She says that she has a lot of worries and concerns about her future/career and that she just wants to be alone right now. She claimed that it's not about breaking up with me, but that this is an important...
Okay, so I wake up this morning, sign on to Facebook and I find that my girlfriend has listed her relationship status to single.
This is very odd and I immediately email her to ask what the problem is. I haven't gotten a response and to be quite honest, I don't expect to get one. I will...
The way my job works, I'm technically employed for 10 months out of the year. The other two months I have two options, I can go into another division within my company or take two months of unpaid vacation. I'm going with the unpaid vacation.
I have enough money saved up to support myself for...
I have a girlfriend right now. We're getting along well and even though she's not as talkative as my girlfriends usually are, I like her. The only problems in our relationship seem to come from me and my insecurities. The biggest example of this is sex.
Although we have had the opportunity to...
Recently I've been thinking a lot about status and social value, and I have to say that my views on this have changed significantly since I've been on this site.
In the past, I assumed that large penises were automatically superior to small penises when it came to sex, but after being here...
This is going to piss people off but I don't care. I hate the term, BBW. It's a lie. What's more it's impossible. You can't be big and beautiful, because being big implies being fat and fat is ugly.
Now, some people might say that comment is sexist, but it's not. Fat is ugly for both men and...
A few months back, I signed up for a dating website, two of them in fact, and although I struck out with most of the women I did find some amount of success with one girl. We've gone out twice and talk almost everyday online.
A few weeks back I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend. I...
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