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A quick recap:
I embarked upon my bi-journey with the sense of being incompetent as a man and most especially when it came to relating with other men. I avoided any kind of contact with men from the age of ten right up until I was twenty. I then experienced my first deep friendship with a...
The homophobia that I experienced while in seminary led to my decision to make Biblical studies a priority in my life. I was unable to reconcile the God that I believed in with the kind of approach that I’d experienced from the students, so I decided to turn to the Bible and attempt to have a...
As I've mentioned in my previous entry, I've come to a place where I felt it necessary to spend some time reflecting on my relationships with men throughout my life. Recent developments have led to me being even more critical with my analysis, most especially in order to establish the darker...
It's been over a year and a half since I last blogged on this site. How time has flown! So much has since taken place. Where to begin? Where to begin?
I left South Africa at the beginning of June last year and spent a week in Cancún before making my way over to Belize. I loved my stay in...
I'm going to take a break from this site for a bit - I'll bet that you're thinking, "tell me something new". :biggrin1:
The past two weeks have been a rollercoaster ride for me. On the workfront, our company is in the process of closing down which is what ultimately led to our decision to...
I've been away for a bit...correction, I've been a lurker on this site for a while. It hasn't been out of choice, though.
I've had problems with my signal since December so I've been able to log on this site (though it would take forever for this site to download) but when it came to posting...
As I sit in wait for the next hour and a half or so to pass by so that I am able to bid this year goodbye (cue a sigh of relief), I cannot help but reflect on the amount of change and growth that has taken place over the past twelve months. Shew! So much has taken place:
I stumbled across an...
Mrs. biguy arrived home from work and I was waiting for her. Once she’d had a chance to calm down from her busy day, I took her by the hand and asked her to come with me to the bedroom. It’s quite strange because since the night when I outed myself to her, it’s become a habit for us to either...
We've all heard the saying, “If you love someone set them free. If they come back it’s meant to be….”. I've heard it so often that whenever I now hear it, I can’t help but roll my eyes and sigh. In my mind I finish it off with, “...and if they don’t….hunt them down and kill them.” Most times I...
I have had a sense of being caught in a bottomless pit - it started about two weeks ago (cue the picture getting all hazy while a new picture fades in with “TWO WEEKS AGO” written at the bottom of the screen) when I had become fed up with my life.
Mr. was and still is a thing of the past. At...
Over the course of this past week I've been trying to prepare myself for today's sharing. Truth be told, if I could give it a miss, I gladly would do so...but I can't. I need to "vocalise" this experience for the sake of my healing and for you to better understand the remainder of my entries...
If I am ever asked what my thoughts about the meaning about marriage are, my answer will be simple: "Watch 'Shall We Dance?'" It's possibly my most favourite movie, and all because of one scene: When Susan Sarandon meets with her PI at the bar and he asks her what marriage means to her, she...
The misconception and resulting discrimination against bisexuals came as one of the biggest blows that my orientation has dealt me with.
I first started when I searched the web for information and local support groups. When it came to support groups, there was only one and it was very far from...
The night that I “outed” myself to my wife was a very tearful one for both of us. On my part, I knew that I would have to open up wounds (that had started to heal) in order for her to truly see and understand what I was on about. She ended up being in tears because she couldn’t handle seeing me...
Trying to learn about bisexuality is like playing with a ball on a railway track. Things can become very scary. In the midst of my search, came the realisation that in truth, I belong to what feels like a “secret society” and with it comes a sense of being completely isolated from the world...
This journey was originally posted on the "other" site. Some of you may have read it, others not. You may be wondering why I'm bringing it over here. My answer is simple: I am not a member over there any longer, "journalising" my journey has proven to be helpful to me...and I sincerely hope that...